before 2009 ends

Hi, its been a while. I havent blogged since 17th November. Wahliauu.. Anyhoo, I been busy working. Yup yup its true I'm working. :D Nways I dont know what to say cause basically all I do is go to work, eat, sleep, watch Japanese dramas and Futurama and thats about it. I miss college. And I'm starting UNIVERSITY soon, February actually but nyehh..

2009 has been a splendid year, although like every year there will always be shitty moments but dont forget good memories are the ones that make year worth while. Just remember the good memories, whats done is done. My 2009 started out wonderful then comes some shitty moments then came again the wonderful moments so yeah. Met great people, had so much laughter, new experiences and etc.

This year I finally accomplished my mission with bright colors, altho it aint flying colors but still I'm satisfied, I'll do better next time. I can say that I have no regrets.

So 2010 is coming, I'm going to accomplish some new challenging mission and ready to take all the opportunities with a smile and an open heart. I'm ready to boggie for 2010 with everything that I have.

To those I met this year, I'm glad I met you guys :)
To those great people that passed away this year may you guys rest in peace.
Your souls will always be with us.

Have a Happy New Year everyone!
Have a blast, dont forget to smile, dont forget to laugh.

Take care always flowers, xo.
I'll be back soon.

work

I havent been blogging although I had a week of just doing nothing at home but nway I got myself a job, Althea and I did. At Pavilion. I'm working at Parkson Pavilion at the handbag section, please drop by. Work is boring and time pass by damn slow balls. So if you're wondering why I havent blogged in ages is because I'm busy working. Gahh. Paris Hilton you handbags and purses aren't that pretty and its bloody expensive. Sigh.

Well to those who are having holidays, have a good holiday.

Cheerio, xo.
Take care.

sweet memories

Today was our last day of Foundation. It was indeed a bittersweet day.

I was the last one to leave the freaking exam hall for Economics exam. I feel like a total nerd but whatever la. Then the next paper wasn't that bad too. Then it was time to say our goodbyes. We took pictures. Then I hugged everyone that was there. Monkeys and I lepak at the mamak for abit, laugh laugh laugh. Then went to see Ms Mary. Ah isn't she the sweetest lady ever! We chat for abit and we hugged. Yes we did, she had her arms open offering us a hug. When we hugged I felt like tears are coming out from my eyes, i mean where else tears would come from anyway. So yeaahh. I somehow feel quite sad in a way. I'm going to miss each one of my classmates deeply including the lecturers that thought us. This is definitely a sweet sweet memory. :) I dont know why but I couldnt cry. I wanted to but tears are not coming out. So all I could do was to just be at that very moment and cherished it deeply.

This is the second time I had to say goodbye to college. Hopefully, which I'm pretty much sure that I'll pass and go to degree next year. Hoping for good grades tho.

Boy, why do I even care too much. But whatever it is I am here, always. I'm still going to hang around. My heart is not ready to let you go yet. And I miss you.

Have a good weekend everyone.
xo.

I just want you to stay.
Please.

exam

I am freaking out a little cause tmrw is the day where I know foundation is ending! Wahliauu, scared sial. Tapi takpe, I'll do my very best yo! Good luck to everyone who is having exams! :) Its only three days, hang in there mates. We'll go through it togetherrrr..

adios, nights.
xo

Happy Birthday Ryo

I'm taking a break from studying to wish Ryo all over my social networking sites. Haha I know, its silly but I don't care. Anyway Happy Birthday Nishikido Ryo!! You are definitely my ultimate dream guy sial. Super super super good looking and dreamy! Some think their dream guys are always perfect but you do have an imperfection, you're not that tall. Haha but still I love you anyways! I'm so lame sial. But your smile never miss to melt my heart (by looking at his pictures ofcourse) You're 25 years old now. Marry me!!!!!! Hahahahha. :D

I know I posted this picture before and this is my favourite picture of him! *MELTS*

And this one too! Aaaaaahhh dreeeaaaammyyyyyy...

Okay I better stop now. But but but, not buts Syaza. Stop it! Okaaayy fine Syaza. Its study time, Nyeehh.

Good night flowers, xo

its saturday

I manage to wake up before 12pm, wohhoo! I been wanting to wake up way earlier but laaazy lah. And thankfully finally! i worked out for atleast 15 minutes. Haha its a good start la you know. Anyhoo, today is a study dayy. Gonna stuff knowledge in my braaaaain.

After finals is over, I can't wait to get my new room done. All white, ah so gorgeous! Hehe.

So remember I talked about stranger, haha I'm sorry I have to call you that my dear. But anyway since I got used to a week of receiving your phone calls everyday, its going to be two weeks nw. Plus its more than one phone call a day, mostly. I got addicted to it. Now without miss I just wait for my phone to ring. And yes remember I told you, you have a special ringtone. Its one of my favourite song by Big Bang hehe. Its called We belong together. Lol. And nowww, I'm confused because I think I like you. Shit. What say you? I dont know. Remember it was suppose to just be a game? Hmm..

I'm glad now that slowly I have been thinking more about positive things. This is good. I want to go party SIM ALTHEA JASMINE! I want to go Malaccaaaaa! Grrr! Like what Jasmine said, Sim can go see the dog. HAHA :P Althea with that creepy Bala dude LOLOL. Ah I love you guys sia.

Why is my post suddenly so emo one? Ee yerr. But actually I feel like I need a good cry. Should have watched Time Traveller's Wife instead of that stupid Jennifer's Body movie. Its a thriller movie, but I laugh as if it was comedy. Ah sorry ah. Certain stuff in it I just find it hilarious. Hehe

Aite have a good weekend everyone.
Later, flowers. xo

notes

I have successfully did part of my notes. Haha. Still more to go. Just finished with Economics tho. After this it will be Media Appreciation. Then the others. I have a pimple under my lips, grr! So not cool kayy. Anyhoo, a few more days till finals then party everyday papaparty everyday. Hahaha, yea la tuuu.

Btw today was my last day of class for my Foundation. Hell I'm gonna miss you people, like what Sim said we were like a family despite all the offended or whatever lahh. Haha. I kinda agree with her. Will miss you guys very much since you know, I practically see you guys every bloody day since January! Hope to see most of you guys in degree! Good luck with finals sweets.

Okay back to studying. Hehe
Later flowers, xo

playlist

I'm gonna be a little bitchy but I welcome this 'somebody' person in my blog very much. And balls, I'm super curious to know who you are. So I would appreciate it if you tell me. Haha. Seriously the curiousity is killing me in a way ah.

I miss listening to Ms Yamagata. Therefore she and Mr.Buble will be in my playlist from now on. My attempt to study was a half success, which is actually pretty good. Yeay me! I been tuning in to Lite.fm, as always they never failed to provide me good music at night time.

So you came back again, not sure how long you're going to stay. But you know I'll never fail to get excited everytime you show your presence. :) And hope you'll listen to the song I dedicated to you.

This stranger person, apparently I get excited telling Mi about him. And Mi I miss you! And screw that bloody asshole with that stupid Gen2! Nway, stranger and i are testing each other to see how long will it take for us to make the first move to call or text one another. I have a feeling I might lose. Haha Oh well. I'm not much of an ego person, so yea.

Anyway, why am I blogging la? I should be studying. But going to bed instead.
Night flowers, xo.

immune

So I basically havent blogged in a while. And SO MANY things happen. Good, bad, medium. Oh well life is life. Anyway I been making lists. I sort some things out for future plans. Finals are coming, in a week. Excited nervous scared sad, you name it. Foundation is coming to an end, can you believe it? Oh dear Lord. Praying for flying colors tho. So I already plan to get a job right after war is over. Need cash for future usage. Hehe basically now, most of the actions are made for the future. :) Btw I'm plannin to go for Green Day in January. I mean its Green Day sial!

I'm still somewhat in love with you but you as always kept disappearing. You make me sad and sometimes you still manage to get me excited everytime when I can feel your presence.
Then a stranger came a long and its somehow making my life interesting. But I'm still uncertain with this situation.

I felt like its just going to be a game. Therefore I have to play my cards right so that I wont fall wrongly. But somehow I felt like you do care a little since you bother to call and text me most of the time and also you are curious over certain things as well. Haha

Aite, thats it. Going to be missing for a while. Gotta study study study.
Take care flowers. xo

If your plan is to actually just play games with me, I'm going to make you fall deep.

NUFAN

FUCK SIAL! No Use For a Name was bloody amazing just now! I swear to God, they are like long live punk rock doh! I'm happy that I went there with them boys. Wohhoo! Awesome shit!

Apparently theres virus in my laptop. Cibai. So need to reformat it. Very ma fan sial.
Worked for almost 12 hours today with Althea and Sim.
Leg's being a bitch.
Someone's coming to town, excited, nervous and shy sial.

Kay ah ciao.
Happy Deepavali btw!
Night, xo

note to God

Might regret it but fuck it la life goes on. God, You are kind and forgiveful. As long as I don't disturb or bother other people's life its okay. I'll repent and You know it already. You created me. You know everything, I respect You and I worship You but I might not be the best ones that You have but I tried. Temptation is evil and You created it anyway. You got it all planned out. You know what's gonna happen and all. You just let it all happen. Eventhough You gave us options but each options You know the consequences. Well, You are the Almighty God.

wah liau

So yesterday I just bought a book, The Catcher in the Rye. Holyshit balls, boy the book is the shit! The writings is just amusing. I already read half of it and I couldnt stop. Haha. But now I have to la. Nways, it was just an interesting l tale about a young man to read.

I have a problem now, NUFAN's gig I have no company. Mi cant make it. Lazy to elaborate why. Haha, If you're reading this I know you feel bad. :P Dont be ah, its totally cool. Oh and Gene's going but takkan suddenly want to tag along with him and his friends? Malu la sial. Hahaha. Tah la see how la nanti. Geram betul LOLOL.

Last night I finished my Islamic Studies written assignment and boy dont I feel like the world's biggest hypocrite. But fuck it its for the grades. Same goes to my research paper. These assignments are making me going against my views for the sake of getting the grades. Its okay la, to lazy to argue like a mad cow trying to talk about my views. Too much work ah.

I'm just counting down the days for the moment. Apparently for a lot of things. Haha. Been saving money too. For future use. :)

Oh and I downloaded a few movies, Yeah baby! Cant wait for finals to be over then I can laze around, watch movies, read my books, play the ps2 and try playing the ps3 also. Hahaha.

Okay ah, have to continue my research work.
Later, xo

3 weeks

Counting down the days till finals. Its coming, soon! But still got assignments need to finish up sia. Well, I'm left with Research paper, Movie review, TV pilot review, Research presentation and Social Documentary. :) This week will be another hell week.

Someone's coming this weekend. Super excited yet scared. How do I greet you love?
Can't wait!

Goodnight lovers
xo

you

No puedo esperar para verle

=)

NUFAN!

I'm awakeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Counting down the days for No Use For A Name! Wohhhoooooo! MI YOU HAVE TO COME WITH MEEEE!!!

Someone's gonna come here sooooooooonnn! Cant Wait! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Chiow, xo

mondayyy

I've been delaying my work which definitely suck balls. Tmrw for our Media Appreciation class, we're going to talk about Nat King Cole. Woohhhoo. I just had my first meal for the day and im super full which is making me sleeeeeeeepy. This week and next week is going to be another hell week.

The room is shit messy. Gonna shift to the new room soon, when I'm free and rajin. I'm counting down the days till finals. Then we all can go party and drink another the stars again. And i'll be having 2 months break till bloody degree next year.

Eh Zoukout 2009 is on 12 December. I want to go but not sure. grr

xo

I need your help everyone, please!

PLEASE DO THIS SURVEY FOR MEEEEEEEEEEE!
Its for my research paper. Pretty pleaseeee..
http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=xTZKem9qm4DGDavedL_2fRyA_3d_3d

wtf life

I was happy, really. My life was not that bad, it was okay. But now, I dont feel that same anymore. It feels like shit. Life is bitch and will always be. So fuck it, screw it but just live it to the fullest no matter how shitty it gets. So yea.

xo

list list

I rarely make wishlists but somehow now I have a wishlist. But right now its all in my head. (hope I dont forget the list) Will list it out when I have the time.

Oh btw No Use For A Name a.k.a NUFAN are coming to town. Forgot to brag about it before. And 90% chance I'm going. Hehe. Super Excited.

Apparently I have a lot of lists, not just a wishlist but also movie list andddd event list! Wohhoo! All the listing will be done when the fire in hell has reduce ya.

Boy you are one complicated guy but still I'm hanging on to you :)

Gotta go nw.
Chiow Flowers, xo

random updates

I used to hope a lot but then I slowly realized hope is just a lie that keeps you going. So I now I often just have faith in something. And now I’m beginning to feel nothing. NADA!

Deftones is just Awesome and is always my favourite music to listen to when I’m in stress. haha.

Our trip to Malacca is delayed until the semester ends! Its okay Sya, it’s in a month time or so. haha we are so going right after the bloody finals. Urgh finals! Sei lo. then Karabau baby!

I have my Saturday planned out already, looks really fun. Super excited about it. hehe

I have a lot of assignments due on 2nd Oct till 9th Oct. ITS HELL! And I’m still procrastinating. Its baadddd, really. All I been doing is sleep sleep and eat. I’m no longer a pig but slowly becoming a fat pig. Ee yerr, super unattractive sia, lol.

I became a twitter addict, in 2 or 3 months I have 500 tweets already! aha! It became more addictive when I downloaded Twhirl for my laptop, super easy to update my twitter and reply my tweets. Kudos to Seesmic! and also Tweetdeck.

Anyway, I hope you don’t fade away, although it seems like you are, slowly. Well I just need to have more faith i guess. If not its okay, Life is a sexually transmitted disease. It can’t be help that it can be bitch.

chiow flowers, xo

yo

i need a night to remember or not to remember. a night full of madness and randomness. just plain awesome too yes. but before all this nonesense, have to finish all the work first! chiow!

forget about your girlfriend and meet me at the hotel room ;)
the song is catchy ah, its by Pitbull - Hotel Room Service.

hari raya

i know i been missing for a while. and Hari Raya just passed and it was on 20092009! haha. anyway still sempat for me to wish everyone SELAMAT HARI RAYA! hope everyone had a blast and hope it will continue on till i dont know when. haha. i had a nice raya but a lil different than last year's but still it was great. :) talk more later. got lots of assignments need to be done and its due next week! aaaahh! planning to go Malacca next weeked. fingers crossed. i need it, WE need it. Althea and Sim and I. here are some Raya pictures ♥

xo

ear

finally. im happy and satisfied.

the pain is still there but its okay, it will be gone soon.

:)

one year

it has been a year since the death of my beloved cat, Cik Teh. i miss you so much =( why did you have to go so soon. RIP

ps. next week is midterm exam week! die laaa. Good luck everyone.

3 in one.

my right ear bebeh.

at finnegans. a place full of laughter.

had so much fun yesterday. so random annd stupid. too much of laughter and random lame jokes. hehe. and i did my piercings all three in one go. hell yeah. cant wait for it to heal. so i can change the earings. wohhoo.

ps. Raya coming soon! come faster. hehe

i'm annoyed, hungry and pissed off. period!

fucking cibai

excited and not

getting my industrial piercings tmrw! woohhhoo!! super excited andd tragus piercing as well!! yeaahh bebeh! altho theres gonna be paaaaaaaaiiin! but i can bare with it. hehe

i need to start up my engine. theres too much to do. i might have to increase the speed as well, as theres not much time to waste.

raya is coming in two weeks! YEAYYYY!!!

take care, flowers
xo

tc

i'm gonna be quiet for a while.

btw check out the good shortfilms from our very own malaysian film makers, just click the banner at the side.

and we planned on a trip, i know im touching wood but i hope it will happen, our trip. i need it.

thanks,
take care flowers.
xo

im still a fool for you

when boredeom seeks

i need more of these,

more from Mr Coelho please.
somehow these always make people feel better.

the answers to all life's problem.

i miss you

haha

class starts tmrw! lazy wei.

chiow

merdeka

i'm a little annoyed over something i've no idea what. hmm but anyways

HAPPY MERDEKA MALAYSIA! ♥

i think its the internet, its fucking slow. cibai.

night flowers, xo

sunday evening

its a Sunday evening and what am i doing? online and listening to mix.fm. i'm happy that they are playing good old music. not those current only want to make money music. haha. oh well. i just finished ONE assignment and i still have MORE to go. it will done on time ofcourse, i just have this love-to-delay habit! so not good sia.

i just realized that i have a lot of weird habits, weirdo. lol

i think that, the world is a funny place.
and i envy those lovers

tomorrow is MERDEKAAAAAA!!!!!!
i love Malaysia!

later, xo

tattoos i likeeeeeee!

http://www.tattooconventionkl.com/

this is like super duper mother fuckingly awesome!!! Chris Garver from Miami Ink, Shige from Japan and etc is going to be there! Sim we have to go!! hehe. this is like the closest thing for me when it comes to tattoos, since i like body art but cant have it on my body, sighh. i shall just go around praising other people's tattoos. haha sad i know but what can i do. oh i'm just so excited for this. super cool wey! hehe :D tatto lovers / body art lovers lets go and have fun! wohhooo..!!

♥

i dont know

the internet is bloody slow. and i'm so bored and i havent finish my work and tmrw is already fridayyyy... ah i'm so lazy.. i want to eat but i dont feel like eating. damn. so much work so little time. and i might not get the chance to wear my mum's kebaya for raya :( if i still cant find any tailors to do my kain sempit and alter the kebaya top. so saddd!! i was so excited okay! anyhoo.. i dont know what else to say. i been online so much i end up not doing my work! and i got addicted to this poladroid thingy i downloaded! Jen's fault because of her i got to know the existence! haha :D but its fun.

i miss watching my movies and japanese dramas. i want money, i regret spending it too much like air. i hate the fact that i can't understand men. hmm. and i miss the trips that me and my monkey friends had! after all this nonsense with college we are so going out of the city! cuti cuti Malaysia people!

you disappeared again, although last night the words were nice but it was just for a second. i miss you, please come back to me and stay longer.

i wish and pray that the number of people who are affected with H1N1 should stop increasing. and also fasten the process with the vaccination thingy.

chiow flowers, xo

sakura random post

hmm so due to my unusual mood. i changed my layout to simpleeeeeeee. so yeah, going simple is good. and i have a picture of my favourite flower on my header. :) isnt it beautiful? one day i'll have the chance to see those cherry blossoms with my own eyes. guess where i want to have that chance, Japan! ofcourse! although i been there when i was young but that was different. since i'm older now, i shall explore Japan the way i want to! well when the time comes, it'll be super exciting. maybe who knows i can meet my Nishikido Ryo ♥ there's just so much love for him. =))

how random can i get right? the previous post was about my thoughts and laziness and my layout and now suddenly cherry blossoms and Japan? and not forgetting Ryo. hehe. oh well, the only human contact i been getting was from my family so forgive me for being lame, random or stupiddd.. haha.

i might just breakdown in tears anytime soon. why am i still hanging by a thread still? isnt it pointless? actually i feel like we are still strangers eventhough we've known each other for almost 3 months. hmm.. because of the feelings you gave me before made me like this. although i know you gave me mixed feelings, still i'm waiting around. wtf right. human nature isnt it? trying to make troubles for ourselves. unfortunately, everytime you called me baby, all these crazy thoughts goes away but only at that moment. then when you disappear, the thoughts start to haunt me back again.

this habit of mine has to go! pronto! i've become VERY lazy and i know it but i aint doing anything about it. seeeee!! ohh god! i dont know whats wronggg. i need some motivation to move my ass.

the shortfilms by the Malaysia directors that i've seen so far, amazing amazing! :) i'm so proud of our Malaysians trying to make a difference! someday, i'll be in the same shoes as you guys. i'll try to make a difference for the country too! by telling stories for the quiet Malaysians. 1Malaysia baby!

http://15malaysia.com/films/

nways, i'm happy that Merdeka is coming soon! but can't really celebrate it due to puasa but its okayy! we should celebrate our country everydaaayyy nway!! and i''m super duper excited for Hari Raya!!! wohhhooo.. i can't wait.

to those who are sick, Get well soon yaa!! drink lots of water! and i think the weather has been great these days!

chiow flowers, xo

layout change

so what do you think? i changed my layout. hahah damnn its so girly aint it? so pinkkkkkk.. haha. i like it but i dont really like it so yeah. whateverrrrr.. will change it again when i feel like it. so nways, college is close for a week!! baahhh!! i'm already lazy and always sleepy and now this is making me even lazier!!! and i'm practically sleeping most of the time sia. its baddd!!

i've been having a lot of thoughts these days. about various things apparently. hmm. i dont know ah, just too much in the head but nothing out. i hate this apparently. and my reality escape is watching sopranos. lol

i think i dont like my new layout, ill change it. hmm

why am i still hanging by a thread?
damn it sia. i need to keep moving forward.

lazy fasting highschoolmates

work is still in progress. aaahhh so badd ah me. becoming even lazier. this is badddddd!! grr. not going for college tmrw. and its going to be my last day off ah. no more taking day off sya! no! sorry miss mary. :( but i wanna see youuu.. grr.. oh well. next week la see you. hehe.

fasting month is coming VERY soon, more like this saturday and i thought it was next week! hahahahaha. i havent finishing ganti my puasa!!! 2 more daysssss!! aaaaaahhh!!!! dammmnnn.. nw i have to double it, grrr. i'm so sorry Allah. i didnt do my job properly. blame my period last week and being sick this week and that i got lost track of the dates. hehe.

today i chat with Dwayne from my highschool! shorty its beeeeenn a long time since we meet! i wonder how tall you are now! hehehe. and i miss my cina boys from highschool! haha. you see i'm very multiracial person one. i can be friends with anyone in school. i got rempit friends too. dont play playyy. hehe

had dinner at A&W with Keyna and Syafiq just now. MISS YOU GUYS, grrr. hehehe. then after that very full dinner. i had to used the loo, more than once. gaarrrrr..

i'll just have to get used to the idea of you appearing and disappearing.
well i like you enough to get used to it, i'll be fine.

night flowers, xo

sick and tired

being sick isnt cool. i'm so tired most of the time, i can barely walk properly. no offense but i walk like an old lady with a back problem. *choi* anyhooo.. God heal me, faster. i need to be healthy so i can do my work and go to college with a smile instead of a sick face. lol. well i still have a lot of work to do and being absent from college makes me feel useless too.

the 15Malaysia shortfilms is awesome. you should check it out. the shortfilms are really short but it gives out unique and deep messages. it makes you think. hehe

http://15malaysia.com/

come back only if you are going to stay, if not dont bother.
i needed you but you werent there. hmm

get well soon friends who are sick :)

xo

mtv

i'm sick. ah damn! sore throat sucks kay. and my tummy is being a bitch at a certain time. anyhoo, i went for world stage, it wasnt that bad. altho certain parts were a lil boring. crowds were nyehh okay only. HOOBASTANK and ALL AMERICAN REJECTS were AMAZING!!! ♥ ♥ hoobastank sang my favourite song from one of their old album! Crawling in the dark was greatly performed! you guys rock! and all american rejects also played one of their popular old song Swing swing! just awesome ah you guys! I LIKEEEEE.. i've been saying that a lot during that time. hahaha. Rayguns which i never heard of, were not that bad. their music is actually good. hehe.

i'm still wondering what you want from me. i think you would know what i want from you. but maybe you just dont understand girls well. i dont know, yet i'm still waiting, although i was at the point of giving up. because i still care and like you. i couldnt find anyone like you thats why i'm still holding on.

night flowers, xo

touched

A beautiful story never fails to touch many hearts. Tears will fall, a change of mind will happen, eyes will open bigger. It gives a lot of impacts to others in various ways as everyone's thinking is different. Yasmin Ahmad never fails to tell great stories to others. I'm so proud of what she had done and all her achievements. Again I have to say I still can't accept that she's gone. somehow it left a hole in my heart although is not that big because I don’t know her in person but I know what she's done and what she's like in a way. Maybe we can meet in the after life, we never know. But please dear Yasmin rest in peace. I’ll pray for you that God will bless your soul always. So I guess you guys would know why this post is here and why I’m talking about her again. I just love her ah so I can’t help it. Anyway, I just watched Talentime just now and it was exquisite. How love in silence can be so pure and so passionate. How a mother’s love made the son to become stronger. How a person who hides their kindness will finally show it because they do care. Certain stories have its own children like trees with their branches and leaves. The leaves become the little hidden meanings of the braches.

I guess I have to say that, sometimes death has it own advantages. When someone important passed away that’s when you would actually realize things that you should realize before.

Well I was really touched by that beautiful film of Yasmin’s.

So flowers take a time off and go watch it. It’s worth it. :)
And the soundtrack is just beautiful, credits to Pete Teo, Aizat, Atilia and etc

much love, xo

koreans

my new obsession :) this time its not japanese its koreans! hahaha. i just love mata sepet guys! hahahahaaha. anyhooo.. i like them because they sing english songs so itssss 'singable' to me. korean songs japanese songs i cant really sing those songs cause i dont speak that language so i can only listen to the beat and what not. haha but somehow i know what they are feeling when they sing cause of the tone and stuff ah. but its all good. so nways, my new obsession is BIG BANG! hahaha a group of 5 guys with style. altho their songs are rnb and hip hop ish but its okay cause their lyrics are nice and the beats too! hehehe. and ofcourse i would really fancy one guy and he's name is Seung Ri. and they are all around 19 to 23 years old i think, so yeah muda muda. hehe.

Seung Ri :)
♥

ps. i'm still loyal to my RYO ya. hahaha. xD

oh well i know im being silly and like a total fan girl but nyehh wtv. atleast they are dreamy and wont lie and cheat on me like other typical guys. haha.

oh and im gonna watch Talentime later with Meego!

wohhhooo! cant wait. weee

love you Yasmin Ahmad!

♥

talk mor later, chiow.

xo

screw men

so i found out things that i dont want to know today. okay fine already found out about this like slight details only and now i know the truth and its cibai. yes VERY. well however i have no idea how im feeling. about that thingy and about everything related to it. but i shall admit it was a waste. seriously, i regret it. but i guess whats done is done so i have to move on. haihh. but actually i had a feeling about this at that time, i knew something was up but i didnt have any proof. so sometimes you have to listen to your instinct properly. nyehh. fuck this, screw it. life goes on. yada yada yada. the lesson here is:

MEN ARE LIARS

because two years being together and you had another girl throughout the whole time we were together. i mean WTF man. so all the things that happen was just crap crap crap. bullshit yo! life is life. it fucks you up sometimes.


well not all la liars but somehow i felt like most of them ah. so yeah.


have a good day. ladies beware of men. hahahaha


i hope you're not like that boyy..

xo

its Talentime!

haha. im happpyyyyyy!!! because they are going to rescreen Talentime in the cinemas! yeaayy!! i can go watch and im bringing my mummy laaahh. it starts tmrw so yeah, i cant wait! im going to watch it at TGV KLCC, hehe. ♥

http://www.talentimethemovie.com/index.asp

the superbike guy

there was this guy who caught my eyes this morning at college. it was funny to me cause i just reached college and was walking to the library then there was this guy walking towards my direction since he's going the other side la kan. he was in a formal outfit with his bandana, he had a pair of piercings i think, carrying his bag pack and also he was carrying a full face helmet. that meanssssss, he rides a freaking superbike sia! and he's chinese. aaaaaaaahhh. even nicer, he's hot. at that very moment when he walked past i can just faint but that would be too much la right? but then maybe if i faint he'll catch me. HAHAHAHHAHA LAMEEEEEEE!!!! nways i dont know who he is but he got style. hoping to see him again anytime soon. hmm im not sure whether he's working or he's a student tho. hehehehehe..

im sleeepy and tired. still trying to adapt to the idea of five bloody days of college in a week. so used to having fridays off. grr.

you appeared but im somehow curious over certain things, but im happy that your existence can be seen.

later, xo.

one of Ryo's song

i like the meaning of the song and ofcourse its in japanese but here's the translation of the song. =)) i likeeeee..

P o t e n t i a l

The curtain sways softly,
Every now and then, the morning sun peeking through the opening.
I lay about, hour by hour.

The TV I forgot to turn off,
Changed from a soccer broadcast to a montage picture.

Softly and cruelly, the sun rises and falls.

The future that I had pictured could not be found here.
[And] I lost sight of everything,
Even the ideal self that I had aimed for,
Forgetting, feeling pressed and hesitating.
Today as well, the sun goes down.

In this city that lacks stability, if I were to stumble,
I felt like I was going to get trampled on.
I was searching for something to hold on to.
Worrying only about my public image,
I stared at the shadows reflecting on the asphalt,
While preserving the delicate balance between right and left.

My reflection on the show-window
Smiling through my tears, like a clown.

Even if I cry-out or sing,
I felt like it wouldn't reach anyone's ears.
My dreams, along with my voice are fading.
Today as well, will I go on blaming things on everyone?
Will I continue being suspicious and losing sight of myself?

I wanted to lean on something.
[And] I kept on searching for that certain something.

The future that I had pictured could not be found anywhere.
I'm on the verge of losing sight of everything.
I get hurt,
But nothing I smear on can heal the pain.
Even if I start to recover, I end up scratching it again.
Blood and tears just overflow.

Even if I cry-out or sing,
And even if no one hears me,
For you, I will not give up.
"Unfinished"
The rest of your hidden potentials,
Build it up gradually.

I am lacking something.
I'm just searching for the missing piece.
Soon, the moon will shine.

Before us is a night full of sparkling stars.
See, there is also something shining over there.
I'm going to grab hold of it this time.

hanging by a thread

I miss you

I want to shine with you,
Even if it's just for a moment.

stories films hearts

i need a clean table to do my work but apparently its filled with books, islamic books. hehe. i wanna do a lil research of my own. and i need a cleaner room cause its now messy filled with my clothes. the basket that i have now doesnt seem to be enough to fill in the extra clothes. need bigger closest fasterrr.. im making an effort now to do my workk.. its processing slowly, apparently kinda slow ah. haha. how sad righttttttt... i guess the condition of my work doesnt gives me the feel to do my work properly tho, grr.

oh and we had michelle post bday celebration at sunway pyramid just now. i didnt fast today because of her. hehe :D well my craving for pizza has stopped cause thats what we had just now. waahh super full and cheesy weyy.. and we played pool after that, sadly not all of us. sim althea jasmine and me. oh and i bought Gubra by Yasmin Ahmad cause i didnt get the chance to watch it before. and guess what i watched it, straight after i got back home.

and yes it was amazing. she's amazing. it was touching and beautiful. a job well done because she's the storyteller that knows how to touch others heart. :) cant wait for the other films of hers to be in the dvds so i can buy them all. weeeee. love you Yasmin! May you rest in peace. and your movies never missed to make me cry. i'll always end up in tears when watching. hehe

im glad that you're responding.
i have been missing you.
make sure you take care of yourself.
kisses.

i too want to be a story teller. tell others great stories that inspires. fiction or non-fiction it doesnt matter as long as it help others and touch others heart. humanity and love will always be in those stories.

p.s i miss listening to light&easy.

talk more later flowers, xo

yo

firstly to those who are sick, get well soon yea :)

nways im packed with tons of work but then sadly im not trying as hard as i should to work my ass off. haha. will do, soon kay. later by tonight aite. basically its been a nice beginning of a new semester ah. sleepy is back frm holidays. ahahaha. super kawaii :D nways ill continue blogging stuff later later ah. im kinda lazy.

letting go isnt easy. im trying, really.

chiow flowers, xo

obsessed

im gonna be me, overly dramatic, paranoid and just me. anyhoooo.. my leng chai has a girlfriend. yes yes he has one. i wanna die, shoot me now. kill mehhhhhh.. hahaha takpe he's attractive, so no harm done if i just look at him sometimes right? hehe. tapi hmm..

kay moving on.. i like playing pool. its super fun. sim and i thought of playing snooker one day. hehe. and my arm is still retarded. haihh, so annoying ah pain pain pain.

grr. im depress now, sigh.

and i watched the movive, obsessed just now. lol

chiow, xo

eye candy

i'm giving up on you with a smile. i mean its time, dont you think so? waiting and waiting for a person, sometimes the person might not be worth waiting for. i mean, apparently i been there. hahaha. it was worth it when we were together then after that it was just nyehhh!! LOL.

so nwaaayyss.. back to my pain story from the previous post. it was my very own cat Cik Yah that bit me, cause she got stuck between the freaking automatic gate. idiot also, cause she knew i was opening the gate she quickly went thru the side thinking she's the flash. grrr but i felt bad cause i was the one who opened it. andd at that time i was in a hurry. i was late, class was at 8 and it was 7.30 at that time and it was raining. so yeaahh. well she's fine, thank God. and im fine too. just have to bear with the pain, which it still hurts now. haihh.. the place where i get injected at my arm which is near my shoulder, whatever you call that part is, i mean its at the place where the doctor always give you an injection ah, kay thereee. its hurtingggg. gah, in one freaking hand, my left hand ah, i have two pain to deal with. haiyaa..

oh andd, you know i never told you that i actually have an eye candy in college :) but i dont know who he is but apparentlyyyyy i have a friend who knows him. hehe. since i dont know his name so i call him my leng chai. :D he's is aaaahhhh super good looking (for me aahh) and i always see him in formal wear, so yess thats why i have my eyes on him. funny thing is that im not sure whether he's chinese or malay. haha!

ohh and nowww i have lots of thinking to do about several things. aahh my brain needs to work properly since i kind switched it off for two weeks. nyehh.

i'm doing just fine with the situation im in.

later flowers, xo.

paaain

im in pain, shitttttttt... im typing with on hand. lol. but aaaahh, pain pain. tell you why later when i take my pain killer, now im just dealing with it. i had to take an injetion and duddeeee OUCH much! depress ah now =(

difficult

i was at the verge of giving up. and i knew this going to happen, that you'll appear as soon as i felt like giving up. why oh why i've tried so hard. you have no idea. i have many questions going around in my head. i just need answers, i dont care what the answers are going to be. i only need answers thats all, then i can make up my mind. im going crazy, do you have any idea how i've been? no, cause you never asked. its been a while. hmm, i'm a little tired of this but still too stubborn to give up.

somehow this time, i cant let it be.

semester 3 starts tmrw. praying for better semester,better grades and better experiences. :)

goodnight flowers, xo

RIP Yasmin Ahmad

Yasmin ahmad - you are definitely my idol and will always be. and sad to say i didnt have the chance to even meet you at least once in my life. but your great works inspires me, therefore ill try to continue on what you do best but with my own ways. im sure you have touch many hearts as how you have touched mine. and im very greatful to have you as one of my idol and also that you are from the same country as i am. rest in peace and may Allah bless you. i'll pray for you. Inalilah, Al-Fatihah. i no matter what will watch all the great films that you directed. im trying to get my hands on all your films, ill own all the dvds cause you inspire me. again, rest in peace and Al-Fatihah. Takziah to your family.

http://www.themalaysianinsider.com.my/index.php/malaysia/33301-get-well-wishes-pour-in-for-yasmin-ahmad

She was reported to have suffered a stroke and brain haemorrhage


xo

hmm

i want to feel better. it hurts thinking about it all. make me feel better. you told me you'll be my crying shoulder, i need your shoulder now. you said you going to be my best friend, so are you willing to listen about whats on my mind? hmm..

still waiting, wishing, wondering
but im praying at the same time for Yasmin Ahmad.

lets all pray

im praying for Yasmin Ahmad. please be okay. please.. i dont know what else to say. im just so sad right now. i have no idea what to do except to pray for you. hoping and wishing that you'll be fine. wake up, wake up, wake up. fight, fight, you still have so much more to do here.

Ya Allah please, give her strength, please please please. save her.

happy not

not happy. disappointed, frustrated, dissatisfied. enough said. but then whats done is done. have to study harder for the next semester. no more playing around. gotta increase my cgpa, yess.. and shit i have a freaking C+ in my results. SAD, very. disappointing apparently. haih

you, i dont know. you are driving me crazy yet im still waiting. hmm
i want to see you or atleast hear your voice, it would make me very happy.

i think i have a crush on Caprice. haha :D he's sexyyyy..

later flowers, xo

hope is a lie

its because i hope too much, it hurts. well its true that they say, hope is a lie that keeps you going.

what is it that you really want?
tell me, i need to know.

xo

move move

had a nice weird weekend. went for Sabrina's party. fun fun. and the following day for bon odori, which i MISSED IT! because we got lost. fuck it wey. shah alam road heck i know nothing. gaarrrr. i felt so bad to my sister and her friend and Mi. we made it but then it ended 3mins after that. ma cibai.

one more week till class starts, yeay. im so bored at home being like a pig. i like keeping myself busy. more japanese drama to watch now. oh and thanks to my cousin's unwanted clothes i make use of it =)) need bigger wardrobe now. cant wait to move out of the room but actually felt a little sad. no longer sharing room with my little sister =/

i have plans to make and things to do before class starts. dinner with syafiq, lepak with arslan, movie with terran althea jasmine wei wen and etc. take Mi's dvd from my cousin, take Cik lat to the vet, wash the cars. nyehh!!!

p.s im actually super lazy to blog, dont know why but yeah. im making an effort apparently.

i want to be with you, just want to be with you.

i like hearing your voice, it makes me happy.

but still, hmm.. i dont know.

kay ah later later flowers, xo

what now

im done with
1. brothers and sisters season 1 and 2. thanks to Simitha! :D
2. the bride and the father. (japanese) thanks to Mi.
3. proposal daisakusen. (japanese), thanks to Mi again

i had tears watching all these dvds

well im gonna watch sopranos season 1 since i found the dvd in my brother's room. hehe. and maybe any movies that i can find to help me kill tim during the holidays. today im going for my cousin Sabrina 18th birthday. and tmrw will be going for Bon Odori Festival =) and MAYBE to Afiq's birthday after the festival. nyehh. i have been going out since last saturday. lol

you are confusing me yet i'm still here, wondering.
im waiting for that fullmoon that i feel in love with.
you were always on my mind and it cant be helped.
i tried to avoid thinking about you but i think about you even more.

and now jeng jeng jeng...

NISHIKIDO RYO!

he made me feel better, always :D

♥ ♥

*melts melts melts*

later flowers, xo

photographs

apparently i have a thing for church.

the designs are always exquisite.

:)

tagged by my bestfriend but she didnt tag me first, RAWR!

RULES: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to copy-paste this note, and answer all the questions. At the end, choose 15 people to be tagged - including the person who tagged you. (To do this, go to “notes” under tabs (+) on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, paste the questions, answer the questions, tag 15 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

ABC About You Questions:
A - AVAILABLE: not really except for one person, yes
B - BIRTHDAY: 10 april
C - CRUSHING ON: malacca boy
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: plain water
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Mi, Alissa, Keyna
F - FAVORITE SONG: too many apparently.
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: bears
H - HOMETOWN: KL
I - IN LOVE WITH: Nishikido Ryo!
J - JUGGLE: dont know how
K - KILLED SOMEONE: if i tell you, i have to kill you.
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: terengganu, penang, singapore?
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: vanilla and chocolate
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 4 brothers and a sister
O - ONE WISH: to have more wishes
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: he didnt picked up tho, haha it was Gene
R - REASON TO SMILE: seeing others smile :)
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: some AC/DC song
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 1pm something
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN: stripes, turqoise grey
V - VEGETABLE(S): green veggies baby
W - WORST HABIT: easily distracted and lazy
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: nada
Y – YOYOS ARE: not my thing
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: aries

Random Questions About You:
Spell your name without vowels: Wn Nrsyzln
What color do you wear most?: red i think
Least favorite color?: blue
What are you listening to?: fan sound lol
Are you happy with your life right now?: can say so
What is your favorite class in school?: english! human comm ;)
When do you start back at school/college?: in 2 weeks time
Are you outgoing?: i guess so
Favorite pair of shoes?: my flip flops, my voir and elite wedges
Where do you wish you were right now?: out of the city

THE CANS:
Can you dance?: i enjoy dancing
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: no
Can you whistle?: can ahh
Write with both hands?: ya sure, but my left hand writing, its a miracle if you can understand it.
Walk with your toes curled?: hmm

THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets?: if there is, its cool wey
Do you believe in miracles?: yeah
Do you believe in magic?: no, i believe in magic TRICKS
Love at first sight?: i do. LOL
Do you believe in Satan?: aahh the devil..
Do you believe in Santa?: since i love christmas, ya santa. hohohoho!
Do you know how to swim?: a lil bit
Do you like roller coasters?: ya but not the crazy ones
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: food yes but insects and some weird animal organs? ewww. no no no.

THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane?: ya
Have you ever asked someone out?: ya
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: ya
Have you ever been to the ocean?: ya
Have you ever painted your nails?: ya

THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside?: i dont know
What radio station do you listen to?: light&easy, mix, hits, red, etc
What was the last restaurant you ate at?: i cant recall
What was the last thing you bought?: dunhill light for my brother
What was the last thing on TV you watched? : brothers & sisters.

THE WHOS:
Who was the last person you IM'd?: cant remember
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: some couple being all manja with each other and the girl was wearing a friggin cosplay outfit!
Who was the last person you said I love you to?: Mi

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?: ya
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: ya
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: ya
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: LOL ya
Do you cry when you get an injury?: it depends
Do certain songs make you cry?: ya

HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person?: can say so
What can make you happy? : nishikido ryo, getting a text msg from gene and my cats, my friends.
Do you wish you were happier?: you can never be happier than you already have.
Can music make you happy?: YESYESYES without a doubt.

LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heart broken?: several times.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?: not yet.

LOOK AT ME.
What is your current hair color?: brown and black
Current piercings?: 5 left, 4 right and wants more. lol
Have any tattoos?: i wish i can have a permarnent one,
Eye color?: brown

IN A BOY/GIRL:
Favorite eye color: any
Short or long hair: any
Height: taller than mua
Best clothing: anything that suits him.

HAVE YOU EVER
Been to jail: no *choi aa*
Mooned someone: hell no
Laughed so hard you cried: yes yes
Cried in school: ya, khalid punched my nose! grr
Thrown up in a store: more like at a bar LOLOLOL
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today: i think got.
Gone skinny dipping: SOMEDAAAAAYY!

THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke: vanilla coke
McDonald's or Burger King: any
Single or Group Dates: singleeeee
Chocolate or Vanilla: depends
Strawberries or Blueberries: blueberries
Meat or Veggies: chicken!
TV or Movie: Movies
Guitar or Drums?: both
Adidas or Nike: nyehh.
Chinese or Mexican: chinese, japanese :D
Cheerios or Corn Flakes: Honey stars.
Cake or Pie: cakeeee
MTV or VH1: MTV

i been spending my time with brothers & sisters. i have been very unproductive apparently. haha

yeah yeah yeah

EXAM I MEAN FINALS IS OVERRR for this semester only. hahaha but hell fucking yeah! LOL kaaaayy i can rest and watch movies after movies and dramas after dramas and sleeeppp and eaaaaattt and exercise too. hehehe :D i got my dramas ready but i think i might need more dramas tho. lol. kay ill continue talking crap later now i need my TV, its been a while *not really actually* but whatever i bored. kay kay i go now.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS FOUNDATION IN COMM STUDENTS!

he is so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
you caught my heart hehe

ttyl flowers, xo

almost there

ALMOST THERE FOR MY SECOND SEMESTER TO BE OVERRRR!!
HOLIDAAAAAYY! BUTTTTTTT STUDY FIRST! Nyeeeehhhh!!!! Grrr
LAST paper tmrw but its IMC meaning harddddddd..
kay kay no more CHOI-ing *touching wood* hehe
XD

out of nowhere

have you seen the moon tonight? i wish you were nearby.

im annoyed. aaaaaaaaaaaaargghhh.. one word FUCK OFF. but why? I HAVE NO IDEA! wth la right? had to send mum all the way to subang and dude i was just there just now for college! then yesss i got lost after sending her, went to shah alam because fuck knows which part of subang i was at. followed whatever mum said but it turns out wrong i dont know ah. damn cibai. super annoyed. those fucking drivers too. yes yesss. today i was a cibai driver, sorry mates. its not a good night for me. i guess period is coming. out of nowhere im like super pissed off.

so nway the moon tonight, fucking exquisite, the color is not the same as two nights ago. this one is THE SHIZNIT! fuck awesome. yes all my sentences have swear words. i apologise, i just cant help it but whatever its my blog. but again THE MOON IS BEAUTIFUL! but considering im living in the freaking city i dont see many stars more like no stars. if not it could add on to they beauty of the night sky that God has created for us.

okay im off now, gotta go STUDY STUDY STUDY. so they say laa.. bought redbulls already. been craving for it. hah! kaaayy. oh fuck yeah! saw my leng chai in college. but shit i have no idea who you are but i know you are super good looking to me. =))

you're still unpredictable, but its okay i like you.

xo flowers.

fly me to the moon

have you seen the moon tonight? its exquisite. i just love bright bright fullmoon. it just takes my heart away without miss. so fly me to the moon, and let me play among the stars..let me see what springs is like, and jupiter and mars. in other words hold my hand, in other words darling kiss me. fill my heart with song and let me sing forever more. you are all i long for, all i worship and adore. in other words, please be true.. in other words i love you...

where did you go? why oh why..

love is a battlefield.

im not happy, im distracted and confused.

xo

weeds season 5

weeds is baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!! wohhoooo! its time to smoke up people, LOL.

shaggy

From now on, you can't tell lies, are you ready?
haha sure

Think back six months ago, were you single? Who are you dating?
i was not available because i was busy missing ilyas. hehe :D

What do you carry with you at all times?
my smile haha

When you say you don't care, do you mean it?
it depends on the situation cause sometimes i really dont care =/

How are you feeling?
confused

Is something wrong right now?
not really, its just me you know, paranoid.

Are you mad at someone?
annoyed, yes

What's on your mind?
finalfinalsfinals, and boyy you make me wonder a lot

Are you jealous of someone right now?
i dont know, maybe.

Do you want to start over with anyone?
whats done is done bro.

Do you know if anyone likes you?
i wish i know whether you do like me or not. haha

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
wuuu, yaa

What are you supposed to be doing right now?
STUDYING!

True love or 1 billion bucks?
money money money.

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
they always says your mata SEPET! hahaha :D

Anything you would change about your life right now?
probably, maybe, perhaps, not so sure laa

Could you cry right now?
yes

Do you ever think about stuff and start crying?
yes

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
quite a lot

Are you okay with the life you live?
yes

Last person you told a secret to ?
hmm

Do you like hugs?
yes, cuddles in bed.

Do you believe true love can conquer anything?
apparently so.

When was the last time you cried?
quite recent tho but cant remember when it was. i guess it was one of those movies i watched

How much money did you spend today?
nada

What's something you really want right now, be honest.
the truth and answers.

How do you feel about your hair right now?
haha good question! i just had a haircut yesterdaaayyy.. i guess i like it. but grr its a lil shorter than i wanted it to be. nyehh

What did you do yesterday?
i was being a nice cousin, sister and bestfriend. picked them up and sent them wherever they wanted me to. then Mi and i went to the salon and we both have almost the same hairstyle now. altho mine is a lil shorter. nyehh then we went to damai with Li, and lepak with Mi until i fell asleep. sorryy Mi! i fell asleep.

Would you forgive a friend for telling your biggest secret?
hmm. depending who she told. communication is irreversible anyway.

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you speak with them?
Mi, Alissa, Cik Lat, gene, friends and collegemates.

When's the last time you said you were fine and you really weren't?
last saturday =/

Is someone on your mind right now?
yup yup

Who's birthday is coming up?
gene's and nadhir's, i dont really know many people who was born in july. aha

Were you happy when you woke up?
big no.

What's the last thing you ate?
cornflake cookies

Are you easy to get along with?
ya

Ever cheated on someone?
=/

Who is the last person to send you a text?
gene

What are you currently listening to?
mix.fm

"i was once skinny"

yes yes, im paranoid! hahahaha i found this picture, while i was bored so i looked through my old pictures. then jeng jeng jeng, i was like WTH mate! thats meeeeeee... hahaha fuck i was once skinny, and thats my proof! hahahahahaha. but then now, not anymore.. gaaarrr! but its a good thing cause i was skinny during my school prom! hahahahaha! LOL :D

kay i have to study for my finals since i havent done shit..

still im not so sure about you.

later flowers, xo

class event, AWESOME shit.

words behing meanings, meanings behind words. thats the name of our event, and it happened when? YESTERDAY! how was it? SUPER FUN! hehe. aaahh i love my booth, so much fun. THANKS ALTHEA JASMINE AND WEI WEN! ♥ anddd everyone in FICM JAN 09! Ms Mary, Ms T, Terran, Norman, Fu Wang, Ken, Suzuki and the people that came to our event! we also made new friends! :D

meet Fu Wang, my new friend. hahaha. he's so shy.

Can i take a picture of you? so that i can show santa what i want for christams. :D

he became my victim of pick up lines.

and i got his number! hahaha :D

aahh sim, our tshirt santa for the day. hahaha
my gang! at our tribute for mj thingy
RIP MJ
weeeeee.. :D

michael jackson played pool with us, ahahhahahahahaahaha :D

after all that fun, we played pool for three hours, and went drinking for abit. lepak lepak and chat here and thereeeee.. weeeee.. i had so much fun!

so much loveeeee...

you're a still unpredictable to me.
i feel super insecure
because i like you.

later flowers, xo

I was tagged on FB by alissa

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with d wedding plan! At the end, choose d people u want to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know about u!=)

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your wedding plan, tag d people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

1. How old are you?
18 baby

2. Are you single?
apparently so

3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
when the time comes

4. Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
didnt i answered that i was single?

5. if not, who do you want to marry?
NISHIKIDO RYO ofcourse!

6. Who will be your bridesmaid & best man?
My sister, Alissa, Amira

7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
at a nice hill top at some country area somehwere in Ireland, New Zealand
or a nice simple beach wedding during the evening right before sunset then we enjoy the beautiful sunset.

8. Where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
Ireland, Spain, Europe

9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
Family and close friends.

10. Will that include your exes?
hahahahah

11. How many layers of cake do you want?
i have no idea wey. simple simple enough already

12. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
if its on a hill top, morning. if its at the beach, evening.

13. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
Unforgettable by Nat King Cole feat Natalie Cole

14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon,fork and knife?
normal only aaahh

15. Champagne or red wine?
champagne, wine, beer, liquor. haha

16. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
right after the wedding. haha

17. Money or household items?
money money money LOL

18. How many kids would you like to have?
aah shit kids, i guess not more than three tho.

19. Will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
depends, if we're not too busy. ;D

20. Whose wedding plan would you like to know next?
anybody.

I tag nobody, lazy ah.

hope is a lie

not so good today. you're unpredictable, i'm confused. i'm tired, all i wanna do is just sleep and sleep. abuden, i have to study so yeah. tmrw is our event day for my class. kinda excited and nervous at the same time. =)

i miss dancing, reading, one tree hill, cuddles in bed and long nice interesting conversation.

hope... is a lie that keeps you going.

i miss Heath Ledger.
xo, flowers.

urbanscapes

weeeeeee.. i went to urbanscapes last saturday with non other than my beloved jeng jeng jeng MI! haha :D had fun spending time with her ofcourse! so sad alissa couldnt join us, sigh =( but we watched transformers together the night before, hehe :D nways back to urbanscapes, Althea Jasmine and Michelle were there too!! so we lepak together gethaaaa.. then saw ALOT of my high schoolmates. my seniors, my batch, my junior, my high school crush johan :D hehehehehe.. it was nice that i got the chance to spend time with Mi since we both have been so caught up with school! urghh! so yeah, yeay us. oh and my brother and his friend went too. it was fun in a way although certain parts were rather boring. wuuuuu andd we played the KENDAMA thingyy. its some japanese game thingy. haha, fun fun.

Mi and I with Kendama! LOL

yet again, still doubts doubts doubts.

later, flowers. xo

im a fool for you

cant wait for the holiday.

you called me, what a suprise, i never knew that you would actually call me.
so sweet of you to teman me do my work. made me giggled all the wayyy..
couldnt stop smiling and laughing. hehehe.. you made my day / night.
i was actually nervous and my heart was beating quite fast, wuuu... hehe
sweet dreams to you love.

I'll be that fool for you =)

xo

hate hate hate

i hate what im feeling, i hate that im paranoid, i hate that i fall easily

i just dont know what now

ah shit

RIP MJ

Rest in peace Michael Jackson. You are one hell of a musician. i've been wearing black since this morning and going to continue it for a few days. You will always be THE king of pop. your music has touch many hearts. You will definitely be remembered now and forever.

dont freak out but i think i like you hehe

xo

finals coming soon

not gonna blog as much for now cause finals is coming soon, so yeah.
wish me luck aite. talk more later later. =)

where have you been all my life? ;)

xo flowers

movies movies movies books

i miss my movie days. i wanna spend my days with my movies and eating my popcorns. aaaahhh semester 2 please be over faster. i want to watch all the movies that i listed, like three pages? haha. anddd i miss reading my books too!!! aaaaaaaaaaa.. holiday come fasterrr.. :D andddd i miss watching weeds and one tree hill.

why is it that i always have to deal with distance?
i'm more stronger than i thought. God, He knows i can handle it.
but I need more faith to believe that i can.

later flowers, xo

Khalid's birthday

me and ahmed planned a very small suprise birthday celebration for khalid last night. what a funny night we had, hehe. hope you liked it khalid. for fun we bought him a powerpuff girls' cake. =)

updates updates, good times that i had <3

Now im going to take a little of time and blog since its been a while since i last blog properly. i think i been repeating that sentence alot. Haha

I had the most wonderful time this past few days. On the 12th I went for Tracee’s farewell party. Sigh, she left already. Going to miss you babe. Hope you will have a blast in Melbourne. =) ohh and ofcourse jen was there and also my skinnyyyy friend, ping! Aaahh I miss you guys so muchhh! Including Az, Kajan and Carmen. Miss us bitching at the balcony and Ac during our breaks. You guys made my first ever time in college super awesome :D

I have pictures which I curi from tracee. hehe :D

Tracee, Jen, Me, Ping

Then on Tuesday which was Syafiq’s birthday, his gf Honey made him a surprise birthday celebration at Tony Romas Pavilion so I went with keyna and jojie and the others were there too. Aaahh another group of people I miss a lot. I miss high school time laaa. It was nice seeing you guysss. Hehe. Especially Keyna, yes. I curi pictures from Khalid, but there's more but he's going to give me later later. nyehhh

me Rafah and Keyna

Us that were there. =)

And theeeeeeeenn the other highlight of my week! IPOH PENANG and MELAKAAAAA!! Original plan was Ipoh Penang Terengganu then Melaka the following week. But tak jadi, From Penang to Terengganu is too far. Went with our driver, Sim, Althea and Jasmin. Michelle joined us for Melaka. So yeah. But it was worth it. I had an amazing time, I consumed too much food I must say. Been eating like a pig that’s what they been calling me. Hehe.

I haven’t been to all these three places in so long so it felt nice, although I had trouble sleeping but it didn’t stop me. I’m happy that although the trip was for us to do our work but it was work and fun! So its nice. I hope our video will turn up nice *choi* hehe.

In Ipoh we ate Kuey Teow Soup and Chicken Rice with Togei (however you spell it), it was super sedap okay! Although it was at a Chinese shop, I just simply eat. Hehehe

Then went to Penang, Batu Feringi. Stayed there for the night. We reach the apartment then went out for dinner and drinking. It was nice, the wind was clean and it was just breezy. We walked from where we stayed to wherever our destination may be. So yeahh.. that night, Althea -> Smoker, Jasmine ->Alcoholic. Hahaha. =) =D
The next day we went for BANANA LEAF, GOOD STUFF WEY! I ate one whole banana leaf myself, hehehehe. Then went for Nasi Kandar, I was the only one who ate it. So yeah me pig. Nyehh! That was delicious too.. grrr. Jasmine and I bought clothes theree, it was pretty.. Then we left Penang went back to KL and stayed in our own houses for the night.

The following day, MELAKAAAA! The best ever shit wey! We went for Satay Celup and Putu Piring. Again good stuff. Then we went for jonker street, got pasar malam. Yes I bought stuff, hehehe which I cant help it. It was cheap!!! Then we went to a pub there, and lucky me I made the right choice to choose Karabau Café, cause I heard life music that was calling me with the wooden chairs outside the pub and the red walls they have. Hehehehe.. the staff were really friendly. And I met new ppl but silly me I didn’t get this one Pakistan’s guy number who was born in US and currently living in KL now. Nyehh, if not we could lepakk and stuff. Then we met Gene, super nice and not bad looking guy. Hehehehe.. him, I got his number. Haha, Interesing guy, really. Oh and Althea and Jasmine were drunk. Oh Jasmine and I sang on stage, I cant recall how many songs but it was more than five. Hahaha. That was my first time ever singing at a public area! And I tell you the feeling was amazing. I shall do it again, I guess.. I wish KL have a pub like that. Nyehh, will definitely try and go there again soon!

The following day was chicken rice ball, but we didn’t eat it, lazy to que. Then we went back to KL, I basically slept throughout the ride. Haha.

Our good friend. hehe , curi althea's picture.

Jasmine and I, Curi Michelle punya picture, jangan marah kay.

Althea and I, again curi Michelle's picture :D

Sim and I, curi althea's one.

MY PICTURE WITH MICHELLE is in Sim's camera, which i love so much that picture. hehehe. later when i get it ill upload it kayy.. :D

AMAZING AWESOME WONDEFUL FUN, I really had a good time. THANKS GUYS!

I had enough, I shall talk more later ya,
Night flowers, xo

p.s mind the errors, if theres any. hehe =) and sorry you ppl who i stole pictures from, jangan marah yaa.

what i've been searching for is not here.

its sad and its difficult. have faith, have faith.

fun in the sun

im home and very tired. talk more later la about my trip aite. but it was super fun! :D

bag drama

im going on a roadtrip so ill be living the city this afternoon with Sim, Althea and Jasmine. wohhooo.. Ipoh Penang Terengganu Cherating.
im gonna miss my baby cat and my bed.

btw Syafiq recently turned 19!! hehe Happy Birthday again tetek! love ya fatty boyy :D this is some weird ass picture. hahaha

take care flowers, xo

random good days

had a nice day todaayy. did our video shoot for media history. it was awesome shit. then lepak with yanny after so long of not seeing each other. yeaaahh.. ohh yesterday was good too! won 2 cd's then gave mark the star wars ost cause its not my thang. haha then i won a fine dining voucher worth 200 bucks. haha thanks guys for helping me. and i played pool with sim and althea after so longgggg! and i won both games. coolio. lol. and then i saw my leng chai. hahaha.

weeeeeee.. i love bon jovi. :D
i know its been a while since i last blog properly, just kinda lazy laaa. haha
kay la talk more later, xo

assignments crazy

so basically for all four subjects i have group assignments to do. ALL subjects! gaarrr, dieeee. haha. penat la, i want to rest. i want a vacaaaaayy!! roadtrip!! grr..

i had a nice weekend but it wouldnt be so nice anymore now. haha college you know laa.

lazy to talk

i just want enough freedom, thats it.
i need to study harder.
bye x

my Ryo

i cant get enough of him. he's just soooo gorgeous.. well although he is really but its more like a dream, atleast he doesnt disappoint me. but then dont get married so fast yeaaa, im waiting for a miracle to happen so that i can see you atleast once in my life. ah heck just marry me you beautiful thing. hahhahahahaha. i know, im crazyyy but whatever i just love him so much i could die. his voice his face his body his lips his eyes his hair. aaahh everything about him i likeeeeee! the way he talk the way he act the way he sing, dammnnn maaaann i cant get enough of him. i want moreeeee.. grr. hahaha.


itsumo aishteru nishikido ryo!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

abc

i havent blogged in a awhile. internet is just super lousy nowadays. it wasnt working like for a two days i think i cant recall. it was hell i tell you having no internet haha. so anyway, im gonna fast for 12 daysm gonna start tmrw. i have to ganti laaaaaa. haihh.. hope to play pool tmrw. its been a boring few days. nyehh

night flowers, x

apple and choc milk

aaahhh.. study study study. now im taking a break well it has been almost 30 minutes break. hahahaha. lazy la tired la. haiyaaa. today or more like yesterday althea and i played pool for free. hahaha the lady at the counter is pregnant and she wasnt paying attention to us so yeaahh. we paid 15 bucks she gave us 13 bucks. today after exams we are going to play pool again, now almost everyday i play pool. haha have to brush up my skills! aaahh i suckkk..

i want to watch a movie, i want to go dancing, i want to lepak with my friends, i want to go out and have fun.

i burnt you and flushed you down the drain. LOL.
talk more later, x

first part of war

the first part of the war was aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh, can almost win ALMOST, i knew that she's gonna give the bloody exact questions. haha. i saw it, i felt it but i can just be too confident kan. but yeah the first part of my war wasnt that bad. i did my best, we just have to wait to see the outcome of it yeaaa.. apparently now i smoke like a chimneyhhh, if im out ah ofcourse, if i stay at home i can tahan of not smoking abuden if im out, cannoooottt. haha. now its like on box of 14 can last two days max sia, last time was 5 days! there goes my moneyyy.. story of my life. i dont know what else to say now. kay ah i have to prepare for my other parts of war. i shall get ready to survive this war and WIN WIN WIN! haha.

later, x