nyehh

woaahh dudee..i havent blogged in a week. hahaha.. oh well, i havent been online as often as last time since i dont really need to use the laptop to do my work so yeaahh. but anyway its been a weird few weeks tho. i cant wait for college so i can actually do something then just do nothing and get scolded and shit. turning 18 very soon, yeay me. haha. i dont really know what else to say right now. so yeah.

oh and today also is arwah Ilyas' birthday. Happy Birthday and May you rest in peace. Al-Fatihah.

sry

im a horrible friend, i need to talk to you, i need to see you, but i dont know what im gonna say. i suck very much. im really sorry. maybe when you calm down a little i'll finally talk to you. God damn it i suck very much. but then again im really sorry. i hope somewhere in your heart would have the consideration to talk to me. because we have to face each other soon. i'm sorry. i suck very much

weird joy family

i havent been blogging or even online in so long, okay fine not literally but still it felt so long. haha usually im practically online most of the time. i also felt like i been out so much and finally today i stayed at home and slept the whole bloody day. its all because i didnt have that much sleep in more than 5 days. haha crazyy.. its been such a weird few days apparently, haha. this holidays, i've seen most of the people i have miss so much. Amira, Alissa, Syafiq, Tasnim, Keyna and Diyanna. woohhoo, you guys rock my world. and also i have been driving a lot. damn it. all this will end pretty soon, when college starts. nyehhh... and i finally drove to Bukit Jelutong, haha Mi after this no problem ah i already know how to get there.

i want to share my joy with you all. i got such a nice grades for my 1st semester. 2A's and 1 B. my gpa is 3.69. =)) aaaaaahhh.. im so happy sia. i cant stop singing. hahaha.. its been so long since i have this nice grades and it really proves that if you really study and work hard you will get what you want and ofcourse have some faith as well. Alhamdulillah.

and also today is my oldest brother's birthdaaayyy.. Happy Birthday abg Hafiz, may God bless you always. Love you. =)

chiow, xo.

holding on

i'm bored, tired, sleepy and i dont know what else. i been hanging out with sara, ming, yazeen, arslan and nadhir. haha they are so funny. everytime we lepak we will always laugh like crazy. hehh.. i want moneeeeyyyyy.. gaaaaaaaaaaahhh.. btw i been so lazy to go online and blogging, so yeah i think you would notice since the amount of post has reduce, yes yes im lazy..

although i wanted to break things of with us but i miss you very much right now. i hope you're doing fine boy. dont be a stranger, love you mucho.

secret love

i'm tired and tired and tired. i want to go to sleep, sleep in your arms. i want to have a nice holiday. i need to rest. btw money do buy you happiness in a way, it very much do.

grr

i need SLEEP!

holiday

i've finished my exams and my first semester, yeay me! haha well now i have three weeks holiday. it starts today and ends in apri 1st. not sure what im gonna do in three weeks dohh. haha. im gonna miss my classmates AND sitting infront in class. haha. oh well.. i guess download more movies!

*i need to exercise. ngehh.

i got my chocolate milk finally but not my microwave popcorn. =( im done with my report but studying? not yet. hahh.. lazy lazy lazy.

mixtape

Ms Rachael Yamagata will be live in Singapore on april 15. you know why is it so sucky cause i cant be there! its on weekdays. gahh college! and its after my birthdaaaayyy =( i want to see her live. gahfckingshitmacibaiganhejjgfs!!

finally i studied. haha, i dont think ill be sleeping tonight, i have to continue studying and get my report over with, its just the peer evaluation part that i havent done. haha. Human comm and IT tmrw. haihh, IT.. i have to return my overdue books too. LOL, i gotta pay the fine. haha. kimak, da la aku broke. oh btw, i watched american idol just now, aaahh i just love watching people singing. it just feels so good especially when they really put their heart to it. its just so nice, you knoww.. today's show was nice, most of them have really good voice.

somehow right now i feel like i really need my bestfriend. Mi, im terrified, where are you? =( i need youuu, your comfort and sigh sarcasm. nyehh..

have you ever broke the girl code? apparently i have. hmm..

i made my decision to let you go,
i couldnt take the distance no longer,
i know i still do care for you and always will,
but now i felt like your presence have just gone so fast,
i feel like breaking down and just cry so badly,
i guess, you really do have to becareful of what you ask for.
life is so strange right?

xo

mistress

I think i might get sick soon. my throat doesnt feel right. IT HURTS! gah! i have one day before FINALS! gaaahhh. die dieee. i gotta be honest, i no longer like drinking. i will drink but not as much anymore. i miss Tunku Amira Zahra. i have to see you!! sigh. Ilyas, I'm sorry love. I want my jazz or blues music now plsssss..

sleep sleep now. i still hate this part and i dont feel right.
xo

wanting

i wanna go somewhere where there is jazz or blues music is playing live then i wanna have a nice alcoholic drink and smoke my cigerettes and enjoy that nice moment. i also want to go singing. Mi and alissa lets gooo!! our karaoke plan always spoil. next week, alissa i know you have your holidays too! weee we shall plan our daaayy. miss miss you people. nway, im in the processing of finishing my human comm report, just the peer evaluation part i got kinda stuck. haha :D what to say about my group members, i'm not sureeee ;) STUDYING, i havent really started yet. aahh IT, i need to pass you or atleast get B, well an A would be great but see if its possible. haha. but then Human comm, must must get an A. im working and praying for it. gaaaahh. English ofcourse i want to get an A tooo.. i need good grades so badly. but here i am still blogging. haha i suck very much ey.

i need my vacation, the beach, the stars, the friends, the harmony, the hotel, the shiro lol, the fun, i waaaaannnntttttt.. now now nowww.. grr

morning anger

gaaahh.. i hate it when i need my sleep people wake me up and ask me to do something, ma cibai. i had to sent my sister to school, oh on the way there was fine no jam then after that jam like mad. gah hate it. and now i cant bloody sleep! urgh! ggaaarrr, im just sooo annoyed! i want to sleep and sleep. im so freaking tired. but then i dead awake right now, trying to figure out how to go back to sleep. haih..

nway this is Alex Pettyfer, this gorgeous thing is the one on the right. turns me on everytime. and this is my wallpaper for my laptop. you knw whats even better although he is a year older but then we have the same freaking birth date. =)) drools even moreeee... hahaput me to sleep, sing me a lullaby,

kiss me goodnight and hold me tight.

God's plan.

i think my friend syafiq is paranoid. yesss you fatty, haha. there are more fish or fishes in the sea boy, get the prettiest one you find kaayy. soonner or later, you'll have it. ggaaarrr.. haha :D im saying this because from after so long of not blogging so much to blogging so much about life lessons and shit. hahaha. well boy, have fun at Mr.Mraz concert yeah. wish i could make it. Be strong fatty, im here you knowww..

nway, i finally finished season 3 of weeds. is a freaking good shit to watch laa, seriously. kinda screwed up la, not so much morals in it. haha. but still freaking nice to watch.

im sorry, you know i do love you and will always do. its better to be friends rather than nothing right? you're something that i dont want to lose ofcourse, what we had was something special. and i will always remember it and will never regret it. every moments that we spent together i cherish it very much. you're so pure and so understanding, eventhough im letting it go, i still do love you. nobody can replace you boy. =) where you are in my heart, still remain there. im very thankful of what we had and also the fact that we discovered each other. i will always enjoy talking to you about life and dreams. Te quiero mucho y siempre.

if we are meant to be, then we will be. maybe not now, maybe when the time is right. i guess now God has better plans for us, things do happen for a reason.

still, i hate this part. i suck, yes.

random morning shit.

i dont know what to do
i'm stuck and confused
fuck i hate this part
i know what i want
but how to make it happen?
its hard, i dont want to hurt nobody
again i hate this part.

gaaaahhhhhh.... i just wanna break down and cry.
i need to exercise, stamina all gone already.. i get tired so easily.
i wanna go swimming ah. nobody to teman me also, gaarrr..

boy you're so fine i wanna make you mine.
you're sleepy eyes, makes me smile.
whenever you pass by i can sense you in a mile.
hahahaha.
but then the question is would you like to go out with me?

hahahahaha memang dapat terus. lol

Q

my china boy yes yes yes yes!!!! he approved my friend request and i chatted with him on fb! aaarrr, i likeeeeeeeeeeeeee... :D im just so excited i might actually walk and accidently hit a pole without feeling like shit sia. lol he says see you in college. eeehh best ni, i can say hi to him without feeling shy la after this, i think. yeayy! omg then he spoke malay to me. aiyaa drools man.. gooodddd.. im such a freak. hahaha. his sleepy eyes, gaaarrrr.. :D

*only Mi and Sara knws wth im talking about. hahaha

crap talk

i want to go out on a date. would someone take me out on a date? haha. i want a dinner date. weeee... im bored, i have to study. i havent really started yet.. aarr.. come holiday , come faster. i want to laze around at home all day, watching my movies, aahh i miss my microwave popcorn! damn it. and i want my chocolate milk. aaaaahhhh.. i need to get my groceries ah like this. my exams havent even started yet, im almost going into my holiday mood already. aahh die la like this. i need to study study study. i want A's. make daddy proud. grr..

nways, im broke i want money. then i want the things that needs to be fix, fixed. the aircond especially. i suffered in so long already, sleeping using the fan. aahh. but then im too spoilt by it too. haha

drove in the rain today. aahh rain.. i like you but i dont like you when i have to drive in you. hahahhahaha! and when there's thunderstorm too.. grr.. i dnt likee.. but kissing in the rain is always a dream ey? hahah..

and im not sure about shiro. what do you think Mi?

im talking crap here. haha wtv, chiow.
xo