Monday, August 31, 2009

when boredeom seeks

i need more of these,
more from Mr Coelho please.
somehow these always make people feel better.
the answers to all life's problem.
i miss you
haha
class starts tmrw! lazy wei.
chiow

merdeka

i'm a little annoyed over something i've no idea what. hmm but anyways

HAPPY MERDEKA MALAYSIA!

i think its the internet, its fucking slow. cibai.

night flowers, xo

Sunday, August 30, 2009

sunday evening

its a Sunday evening and what am i doing? online and listening to mix.fm. i'm happy that they are playing good old music. not those current only want to make money music. haha. oh well. i just finished ONE assignment and i still have MORE to go. it will done on time ofcourse, i just have this love-to-delay habit! so not good sia.

i just realized that i have a lot of weird habits, weirdo. lol

i think that, the world is a funny place.
and i envy those lovers

tomorrow is MERDEKAAAAAA!!!!!!
i love Malaysia!

later, xo

tattoos i likeeeeeee!


this is like super duper mother fuckingly awesome!!! Chris Garver from Miami Ink, Shige from Japan and etc is going to be there! Sim we have to go!! hehe. this is like the closest thing for me when it comes to tattoos, since i like body art but cant have it on my body, sighh. i shall just go around praising other people's tattoos. haha sad i know but what can i do. oh i'm just so excited for this. super cool wey! hehe :D tatto lovers / body art lovers lets go and have fun! wohhooo..!!


Friday, August 28, 2009

i dont know

the internet is bloody slow. and i'm so bored and i havent finish my work and tmrw is already fridayyyy... ah i'm so lazy.. i want to eat but i dont feel like eating. damn. so much work so little time. and i might not get the chance to wear my mum's kebaya for raya :( if i still cant find any tailors to do my kain sempit and alter the kebaya top. so saddd!! i was so excited okay! anyhoo.. i dont know what else to say. i been online so much i end up not doing my work! and i got addicted to this poladroid thingy i downloaded! Jen's fault because of her i got to know the existence! haha :D but its fun.

i miss watching my movies and japanese dramas. i want money, i regret spending it too much like air. i hate the fact that i can't understand men. hmm. and i miss the trips that me and my monkey friends had! after all this nonsense with college we are so going out of the city! cuti cuti Malaysia people!

you disappeared again, although last night the words were nice but it was just for a second. i miss you, please come back to me and stay longer.

i wish and pray that the number of people who are affected with H1N1 should stop increasing. and also fasten the process with the vaccination thingy.

chiow flowers, xo

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

sakura random post

hmm so due to my unusual mood. i changed my layout to simpleeeeeeee. so yeah, going simple is good. and i have a picture of my favourite flower on my header. :) isnt it beautiful? one day i'll have the chance to see those cherry blossoms with my own eyes. guess where i want to have that chance, Japan! ofcourse! although i been there when i was young but that was different. since i'm older now, i shall explore Japan the way i want to! well when the time comes, it'll be super exciting. maybe who knows i can meet my Nishikido Ryo ♥ there's just so much love for him. =))

how random can i get right? the previous post was about my thoughts and laziness and my layout and now suddenly cherry blossoms and Japan? and not forgetting Ryo. hehe. oh well, the only human contact i been getting was from my family so forgive me for being lame, random or stupiddd.. haha.

i might just breakdown in tears anytime soon. why am i still hanging by a thread still? isnt it pointless? actually i feel like we are still strangers eventhough we've known each other for almost 3 months. hmm.. because of the feelings you gave me before made me like this. although i know you gave me mixed feelings, still i'm waiting around. wtf right. human nature isnt it? trying to make troubles for ourselves. unfortunately, everytime you called me baby, all these crazy thoughts goes away but only at that moment. then when you disappear, the thoughts start to haunt me back again.

this habit of mine has to go! pronto! i've become VERY lazy and i know it but i aint doing anything about it. seeeee!! ohh god! i dont know whats wronggg. i need some motivation to move my ass.

the shortfilms by the Malaysia directors that i've seen so far, amazing amazing! :) i'm so proud of our Malaysians trying to make a difference! someday, i'll be in the same shoes as you guys. i'll try to make a difference for the country too! by telling stories for the quiet Malaysians. 1Malaysia baby!

http://15malaysia.com/films/

nways, i'm happy that Merdeka is coming soon! but can't really celebrate it due to puasa but its okayy! we should celebrate our country everydaaayyy nway!! and i''m super duper excited for Hari Raya!!! wohhhooo.. i can't wait.

to those who are sick, Get well soon yaa!! drink lots of water! and i think the weather has been great these days!

chiow flowers, xo

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

layout change

so what do you think? i changed my layout. hahah damnn its so girly aint it? so pinkkkkkk.. haha. i like it but i dont really like it so yeah. whateverrrrr.. will change it again when i feel like it. so nways, college is close for a week!! baahhh!! i'm already lazy and always sleepy and now this is making me even lazier!!! and i'm practically sleeping most of the time sia. its baddd!!

i've been having a lot of thoughts these days. about various things apparently. hmm. i dont know ah, just too much in the head but nothing out. i hate this apparently. and my reality escape is watching sopranos. lol

i think i dont like my new layout, ill change it. hmm

why am i still hanging by a thread?
damn it sia. i need to keep moving forward.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

lazy fasting highschoolmates

work is still in progress. aaahhh so badd ah me. becoming even lazier. this is badddddd!! grr. not going for college tmrw. and its going to be my last day off ah. no more taking day off sya! no! sorry miss mary. :( but i wanna see youuu.. grr.. oh well. next week la see you. hehe.

fasting month is coming VERY soon, more like this saturday and i thought it was next week! hahahahaha. i havent finishing ganti my puasa!!! 2 more daysssss!! aaaaaahhh!!!! dammmnnn.. nw i have to double it, grrr. i'm so sorry Allah. i didnt do my job properly. blame my period last week and being sick this week and that i got lost track of the dates. hehe.

today i chat with Dwayne from my highschool! shorty its beeeeenn a long time since we meet! i wonder how tall you are now! hehehe. and i miss my cina boys from highschool! haha. you see i'm very multiracial person one. i can be friends with anyone in school. i got rempit friends too. dont play playyy. hehe

had dinner at A&W with Keyna and Syafiq just now. MISS YOU GUYS, grrr. hehehe. then after that very full dinner. i had to used the loo, more than once. gaarrrrr..

i'll just have to get used to the idea of you appearing and disappearing.
well i like you enough to get used to it, i'll be fine.

night flowers, xo

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

sick and tired

being sick isnt cool. i'm so tired most of the time, i can barely walk properly. no offense but i walk like an old lady with a back problem. *choi* anyhooo.. God heal me, faster. i need to be healthy so i can do my work and go to college with a smile instead of a sick face. lol. well i still have a lot of work to do and being absent from college makes me feel useless too.

the 15Malaysia shortfilms is awesome. you should check it out. the shortfilms are really short but it gives out unique and deep messages. it makes you think. hehe

http://15malaysia.com/

come back only if you are going to stay, if not dont bother.
i needed you but you werent there. hmm

get well soon friends who are sick :)

xo

Sunday, August 16, 2009

mtv

i'm sick. ah damn! sore throat sucks kay. and my tummy is being a bitch at a certain time. anyhoo, i went for world stage, it wasnt that bad. altho certain parts were a lil boring. crowds were nyehh okay only. HOOBASTANK and ALL AMERICAN REJECTS were AMAZING!!! ♥ ♥ hoobastank sang my favourite song from one of their old album! Crawling in the dark was greatly performed! you guys rock! and all american rejects also played one of their popular old song Swing swing! just awesome ah you guys! I LIKEEEEE.. i've been saying that a lot during that time. hahaha. Rayguns which i never heard of, were not that bad. their music is actually good. hehe.

i'm still wondering what you want from me. i think you would know what i want from you. but maybe you just dont understand girls well. i dont know, yet i'm still waiting, although i was at the point of giving up. because i still care and like you. i couldnt find anyone like you thats why i'm still holding on.

night flowers, xo

Friday, August 14, 2009

touched

A beautiful story never fails to touch many hearts. Tears will fall, a change of mind will happen, eyes will open bigger. It gives a lot of impacts to others in various ways as everyone's thinking is different. Yasmin Ahmad never fails to tell great stories to others. I'm so proud of what she had done and all her achievements. Again I have to say I still can't accept that she's gone. somehow it left a hole in my heart although is not that big because I don’t know her in person but I know what she's done and what she's like in a way. Maybe we can meet in the after life, we never know. But please dear Yasmin rest in peace. I’ll pray for you that God will bless your soul always. So I guess you guys would know why this post is here and why I’m talking about her again. I just love her ah so I can’t help it. Anyway, I just watched Talentime just now and it was exquisite. How love in silence can be so pure and so passionate. How a mother’s love made the son to become stronger. How a person who hides their kindness will finally show it because they do care. Certain stories have its own children like trees with their branches and leaves. The leaves become the little hidden meanings of the braches.

I guess I have to say that, sometimes death has it own advantages. When someone important passed away that’s when you would actually realize things that you should realize before.

Well I was really touched by that beautiful film of Yasmin’s.

So flowers take a time off and go watch it. It’s worth it. :)
And the soundtrack is just beautiful, credits to Pete Teo, Aizat, Atilia and etc

much love, xo

koreans

my new obsession :) this time its not japanese its koreans! hahaha. i just love mata sepet guys! hahahahaaha. anyhooo.. i like them because they sing english songs so itssss 'singable' to me. korean songs japanese songs i cant really sing those songs cause i dont speak that language so i can only listen to the beat and what not. haha but somehow i know what they are feeling when they sing cause of the tone and stuff ah. but its all good. so nways, my new obsession is BIG BANG! hahaha a group of 5 guys with style. altho their songs are rnb and hip hop ish but its okay cause their lyrics are nice and the beats too! hehehe. and ofcourse i would really fancy one guy and he's name is Seung Ri. and they are all around 19 to 23 years old i think, so yeah muda muda. hehe.
Seung Ri :)

ps. i'm still loyal to my RYO ya. hahaha. xD
oh well i know im being silly and like a total fan girl but nyehh wtv. atleast they are dreamy and wont lie and cheat on me like other typical guys. haha.
oh and im gonna watch Talentime later with Meego!
wohhhooo! cant wait. weee
love you Yasmin Ahmad!
talk mor later, chiow.
xo

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

screw men

so i found out things that i dont want to know today. okay fine already found out about this like slight details only and now i know the truth and its cibai. yes VERY. well however i have no idea how im feeling. about that thingy and about everything related to it. but i shall admit it was a waste. seriously, i regret it. but i guess whats done is done so i have to move on. haihh. but actually i had a feeling about this at that time, i knew something was up but i didnt have any proof. so sometimes you have to listen to your instinct properly. nyehh. fuck this, screw it. life goes on. yada yada yada. the lesson here is:

MEN ARE LIARS

because two years being together and you had another girl throughout the whole time we were together. i mean WTF man. so all the things that happen was just crap crap crap. bullshit yo! life is life. it fucks you up sometimes.


well not all la liars but somehow i felt like most of them ah. so yeah.


have a good day. ladies beware of men. hahahaha


i hope you're not like that boyy..

xo

its Talentime!


haha. im happpyyyyyy!!! because they are going to rescreen Talentime in the cinemas! yeaayy!! i can go watch and im bringing my mummy laaahh. it starts tmrw so yeah, i cant wait! im going to watch it at TGV KLCC, hehe.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

the superbike guy

there was this guy who caught my eyes this morning at college. it was funny to me cause i just reached college and was walking to the library then there was this guy walking towards my direction since he's going the other side la kan. he was in a formal outfit with his bandana, he had a pair of piercings i think, carrying his bag pack and also he was carrying a full face helmet. that meanssssss, he rides a freaking superbike sia! and he's chinese. aaaaaaaahhh. even nicer, he's hot. at that very moment when he walked past i can just faint but that would be too much la right? but then maybe if i faint he'll catch me. HAHAHAHHAHA LAMEEEEEEE!!!! nways i dont know who he is but he got style. hoping to see him again anytime soon. hmm im not sure whether he's working or he's a student tho. hehehehehe..

im sleeepy and tired. still trying to adapt to the idea of five bloody days of college in a week. so used to having fridays off. grr.

you appeared but im somehow curious over certain things, but im happy that your existence can be seen.

later, xo.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

one of Ryo's song

i like the meaning of the song and ofcourse its in japanese but here's the translation of the song. =)) i likeeeee..

P o t e n t i a l

The curtain sways softly,
Every now and then, the morning sun peeking through the opening.
I lay about, hour by hour.

The TV I forgot to turn off,
Changed from a soccer broadcast to a montage picture.

Softly and cruelly, the sun rises and falls.

The future that I had pictured could not be found here.
[And] I lost sight of everything,
Even the ideal self that I had aimed for,
Forgetting, feeling pressed and hesitating.
Today as well, the sun goes down.

In this city that lacks stability, if I were to stumble,
I felt like I was going to get trampled on.
I was searching for something to hold on to.
Worrying only about my public image,
I stared at the shadows reflecting on the asphalt,
While preserving the delicate balance between right and left.

My reflection on the show-window
Smiling through my tears, like a clown.

Even if I cry-out or sing,
I felt like it wouldn't reach anyone's ears.
My dreams, along with my voice are fading.
Today as well, will I go on blaming things on everyone?
Will I continue being suspicious and losing sight of myself?

I wanted to lean on something.
[And] I kept on searching for that certain something.

The future that I had pictured could not be found anywhere.
I'm on the verge of losing sight of everything.
I get hurt,
But nothing I smear on can heal the pain.
Even if I start to recover, I end up scratching it again.
Blood and tears just overflow.

Even if I cry-out or sing,
And even if no one hears me,
For you, I will not give up.
"Unfinished"
The rest of your hidden potentials,
Build it up gradually.

I am lacking something.
I'm just searching for the missing piece.
Soon, the moon will shine.

Before us is a night full of sparkling stars.
See, there is also something shining over there.
I'm going to grab hold of it this time.

hanging by a thread

I miss you

I want to shine with you,
Even if it's just for a moment.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

stories films hearts

i need a clean table to do my work but apparently its filled with books, islamic books. hehe. i wanna do a lil research of my own. and i need a cleaner room cause its now messy filled with my clothes. the basket that i have now doesnt seem to be enough to fill in the extra clothes. need bigger closest fasterrr.. im making an effort now to do my workk.. its processing slowly, apparently kinda slow ah. haha. how sad righttttttt... i guess the condition of my work doesnt gives me the feel to do my work properly tho, grr.

oh and we had michelle post bday celebration at sunway pyramid just now. i didnt fast today because of her. hehe :D well my craving for pizza has stopped cause thats what we had just now. waahh super full and cheesy weyy.. and we played pool after that, sadly not all of us. sim althea jasmine and me. oh and i bought Gubra by Yasmin Ahmad cause i didnt get the chance to watch it before. and guess what i watched it, straight after i got back home.

and yes it was amazing. she's amazing. it was touching and beautiful. a job well done because she's the storyteller that knows how to touch others heart. :) cant wait for the other films of hers to be in the dvds so i can buy them all. weeeee. love you Yasmin! May you rest in peace. and your movies never missed to make me cry. i'll always end up in tears when watching. hehe

im glad that you're responding.
i have been missing you.
make sure you take care of yourself.
kisses.

i too want to be a story teller. tell others great stories that inspires. fiction or non-fiction it doesnt matter as long as it help others and touch others heart. humanity and love will always be in those stories.

p.s i miss listening to light&easy.

talk more later flowers, xo

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

yo

firstly to those who are sick, get well soon yea :)

nways im packed with tons of work but then sadly im not trying as hard as i should to work my ass off. haha. will do, soon kay. later by tonight aite. basically its been a nice beginning of a new semester ah. sleepy is back frm holidays. ahahaha. super kawaii :D nways ill continue blogging stuff later later ah. im kinda lazy.

letting go isnt easy. im trying, really.

chiow flowers, xo

Saturday, August 1, 2009

obsessed

im gonna be me, overly dramatic, paranoid and just me. anyhoooo.. my leng chai has a girlfriend. yes yes he has one. i wanna die, shoot me now. kill mehhhhhh.. hahaha takpe he's attractive, so no harm done if i just look at him sometimes right? hehe. tapi hmm..

kay moving on.. i like playing pool. its super fun. sim and i thought of playing snooker one day. hehe. and my arm is still retarded. haihh, so annoying ah pain pain pain.

grr. im depress now, sigh.

and i watched the movive, obsessed just now. lol

chiow, xo