Thursday, July 30, 2009

eye candy

i'm giving up on you with a smile. i mean its time, dont you think so? waiting and waiting for a person, sometimes the person might not be worth waiting for. i mean, apparently i been there. hahaha. it was worth it when we were together then after that it was just nyehhh!! LOL.

so nwaaayyss.. back to my pain story from the previous post. it was my very own cat Cik Yah that bit me, cause she got stuck between the freaking automatic gate. idiot also, cause she knew i was opening the gate she quickly went thru the side thinking she's the flash. grrr but i felt bad cause i was the one who opened it. andd at that time i was in a hurry. i was late, class was at 8 and it was 7.30 at that time and it was raining. so yeaahh. well she's fine, thank God. and im fine too. just have to bear with the pain, which it still hurts now. haihh.. the place where i get injected at my arm which is near my shoulder, whatever you call that part is, i mean its at the place where the doctor always give you an injection ah, kay thereee. its hurtingggg. gah, in one freaking hand, my left hand ah, i have two pain to deal with. haiyaa..

oh andd, you know i never told you that i actually have an eye candy in college :) but i dont know who he is but apparentlyyyyy i have a friend who knows him. hehe. since i dont know his name so i call him my leng chai. :D he's is aaaahhhh super good looking (for me aahh) and i always see him in formal wear, so yess thats why i have my eyes on him. funny thing is that im not sure whether he's chinese or malay. haha!

ohh and nowww i have lots of thinking to do about several things. aahh my brain needs to work properly since i kind switched it off for two weeks. nyehh.

i'm doing just fine with the situation im in.

later flowers, xo.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

paaain

im in pain, shitttttttt... im typing with on hand. lol. but aaaahh, pain pain. tell you why later when i take my pain killer, now im just dealing with it. i had to take an injetion and duddeeee OUCH much! depress ah now =(

Sunday, July 26, 2009

difficult

i was at the verge of giving up. and i knew this going to happen, that you'll appear as soon as i felt like giving up. why oh why i've tried so hard. you have no idea. i have many questions going around in my head. i just need answers, i dont care what the answers are going to be. i only need answers thats all, then i can make up my mind. im going crazy, do you have any idea how i've been? no, cause you never asked. its been a while. hmm, i'm a little tired of this but still too stubborn to give up.

somehow this time, i cant let it be.

semester 3 starts tmrw. praying for better semester,better grades and better experiences. :)

goodnight flowers, xo

RIP Yasmin Ahmad

Yasmin ahmad - you are definitely my idol and will always be. and sad to say i didnt have the chance to even meet you at least once in my life. but your great works inspires me, therefore ill try to continue on what you do best but with my own ways. im sure you have touch many hearts as how you have touched mine. and im very greatful to have you as one of my idol and also that you are from the same country as i am. rest in peace and may Allah bless you. i'll pray for you. Inalilah, Al-Fatihah. i no matter what will watch all the great films that you directed. im trying to get my hands on all your films, ill own all the dvds cause you inspire me. again, rest in peace and Al-Fatihah. Takziah to your family.

http://www.themalaysianinsider.com.my/index.php/malaysia/33301-get-well-wishes-pour-in-for-yasmin-ahmad

She was reported to have suffered a stroke and brain haemorrhage


xo

Friday, July 24, 2009

hmm

i want to feel better. it hurts thinking about it all. make me feel better. you told me you'll be my crying shoulder, i need your shoulder now. you said you going to be my best friend, so are you willing to listen about whats on my mind? hmm..

still waiting, wishing, wondering
but im praying at the same time for Yasmin Ahmad.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

lets all pray

im praying for Yasmin Ahmad. please be okay. please.. i dont know what else to say. im just so sad right now. i have no idea what to do except to pray for you. hoping and wishing that you'll be fine. wake up, wake up, wake up. fight, fight, you still have so much more to do here.

Ya Allah please, give her strength, please please please. save her.

happy not

not happy. disappointed, frustrated, dissatisfied. enough said. but then whats done is done. have to study harder for the next semester. no more playing around. gotta increase my cgpa, yess.. and shit i have a freaking C+ in my results. SAD, very. disappointing apparently. haih

you, i dont know. you are driving me crazy yet im still waiting. hmm
i want to see you or atleast hear your voice, it would make me very happy.

i think i have a crush on Caprice. haha :D he's sexyyyy..

later flowers, xo

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

hope is a lie

its because i hope too much, it hurts. well its true that they say, hope is a lie that keeps you going.

what is it that you really want?
tell me, i need to know.

xo

Monday, July 20, 2009

move move

had a nice weird weekend. went for Sabrina's party. fun fun. and the following day for bon odori, which i MISSED IT! because we got lost. fuck it wey. shah alam road heck i know nothing. gaarrrr. i felt so bad to my sister and her friend and Mi. we made it but then it ended 3mins after that. ma cibai.

one more week till class starts, yeay. im so bored at home being like a pig. i like keeping myself busy. more japanese drama to watch now. oh and thanks to my cousin's unwanted clothes i make use of it =)) need bigger wardrobe now. cant wait to move out of the room but actually felt a little sad. no longer sharing room with my little sister =/

i have plans to make and things to do before class starts. dinner with syafiq, lepak with arslan, movie with terran althea jasmine wei wen and etc. take Mi's dvd from my cousin, take Cik lat to the vet, wash the cars. nyehh!!!


p.s im actually super lazy to blog, dont know why but yeah. im making an effort apparently.

i want to be with you, just want to be with you.
i like hearing your voice, it makes me happy.
but still, hmm.. i dont know.

kay ah later later flowers, xo

Friday, July 17, 2009

what now

im done with
1. brothers and sisters season 1 and 2. thanks to Simitha! :D
2. the bride and the father. (japanese) thanks to Mi.
3. proposal daisakusen. (japanese), thanks to Mi again

i had tears watching all these dvds

well im gonna watch sopranos season 1 since i found the dvd in my brother's room. hehe. and maybe any movies that i can find to help me kill tim during the holidays. today im going for my cousin Sabrina 18th birthday. and tmrw will be going for Bon Odori Festival =) and MAYBE to Afiq's birthday after the festival. nyehh. i have been going out since last saturday. lol

you are confusing me yet i'm still here, wondering.
im waiting for that fullmoon that i feel in love with.
you were always on my mind and it cant be helped.
i tried to avoid thinking about you but i think about you even more.

and now jeng jeng jeng...
NISHIKIDO RYO!
he made me feel better, always :D
♥ ♥

*melts melts melts*
later flowers, xo

Thursday, July 16, 2009

photographs

apparently i have a thing for church.
the designs are always exquisite.
:)

Monday, July 13, 2009

tagged by my bestfriend but she didnt tag me first, RAWR!

RULES: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to copy-paste this note, and answer all the questions. At the end, choose 15 people to be tagged - including the person who tagged you. (To do this, go to “notes” under tabs (+) on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, paste the questions, answer the questions, tag 15 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

ABC About You Questions:
A - AVAILABLE: not really except for one person, yes
B - BIRTHDAY: 10 april
C - CRUSHING ON: malacca boy
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: plain water
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Mi, Alissa, Keyna
F - FAVORITE SONG: too many apparently.
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: bears
H - HOMETOWN: KL
I - IN LOVE WITH: Nishikido Ryo!
J - JUGGLE: dont know how
K - KILLED SOMEONE: if i tell you, i have to kill you.
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: terengganu, penang, singapore?
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: vanilla and chocolate
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 4 brothers and a sister
O - ONE WISH: to have more wishes
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: he didnt picked up tho, haha it was Gene
R - REASON TO SMILE: seeing others smile :)
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: some AC/DC song
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 1pm something
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN: stripes, turqoise grey
V - VEGETABLE(S): green veggies baby
W - WORST HABIT: easily distracted and lazy
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: nada
Y – YOYOS ARE: not my thing
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: aries

Random Questions About You:
Spell your name without vowels: Wn Nrsyzln
What color do you wear most?: red i think
Least favorite color?: blue
What are you listening to?: fan sound lol
Are you happy with your life right now?: can say so
What is your favorite class in school?: english! human comm ;)
When do you start back at school/college?: in 2 weeks time
Are you outgoing?: i guess so
Favorite pair of shoes?: my flip flops, my voir and elite wedges
Where do you wish you were right now?: out of the city

THE CANS:
Can you dance?: i enjoy dancing
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: no
Can you whistle?: can ahh
Write with both hands?: ya sure, but my left hand writing, its a miracle if you can understand it.
Walk with your toes curled?: hmm

THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets?: if there is, its cool wey
Do you believe in miracles?: yeah
Do you believe in magic?: no, i believe in magic TRICKS
Love at first sight?: i do. LOL
Do you believe in Satan?: aahh the devil..
Do you believe in Santa?: since i love christmas, ya santa. hohohoho!
Do you know how to swim?: a lil bit
Do you like roller coasters?: ya but not the crazy ones
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: food yes but insects and some weird animal organs? ewww. no no no.

THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane?: ya
Have you ever asked someone out?: ya
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: ya
Have you ever been to the ocean?: ya
Have you ever painted your nails?: ya

THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside?: i dont know
What radio station do you listen to?: light&easy, mix, hits, red, etc
What was the last restaurant you ate at?: i cant recall
What was the last thing you bought?: dunhill light for my brother
What was the last thing on TV you watched? : brothers & sisters.

THE WHOS:
Who was the last person you IM'd?: cant remember
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: some couple being all manja with each other and the girl was wearing a friggin cosplay outfit!
Who was the last person you said I love you to?: Mi

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?: ya
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: ya
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: ya
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: LOL ya
Do you cry when you get an injury?: it depends
Do certain songs make you cry?: ya

HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person?: can say so
What can make you happy? : nishikido ryo, getting a text msg from gene and my cats, my friends.
Do you wish you were happier?: you can never be happier than you already have.
Can music make you happy?: YESYESYES without a doubt.

LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heart broken?: several times.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?: not yet.

LOOK AT ME.
What is your current hair color?: brown and black
Current piercings?: 5 left, 4 right and wants more. lol
Have any tattoos?: i wish i can have a permarnent one,
Eye color?: brown

IN A BOY/GIRL:
Favorite eye color: any
Short or long hair: any
Height: taller than mua
Best clothing: anything that suits him.

HAVE YOU EVER
Been to jail: no *choi aa*
Mooned someone: hell no
Laughed so hard you cried: yes yes
Cried in school: ya, khalid punched my nose! grr
Thrown up in a store: more like at a bar LOLOLOL
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today: i think got.
Gone skinny dipping: SOMEDAAAAAYY!

THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke: vanilla coke
McDonald's or Burger King: any
Single or Group Dates: singleeeee
Chocolate or Vanilla: depends
Strawberries or Blueberries: blueberries
Meat or Veggies: chicken!
TV or Movie: Movies
Guitar or Drums?: both
Adidas or Nike: nyehh.
Chinese or Mexican: chinese, japanese :D
Cheerios or Corn Flakes: Honey stars.
Cake or Pie: cakeeee
MTV or VH1: MTV
i been spending my time with brothers & sisters. i have been very unproductive apparently. haha

Friday, July 10, 2009

yeah yeah yeah

EXAM I MEAN FINALS IS OVERRR for this semester only. hahaha but hell fucking yeah! LOL kaaaayy i can rest and watch movies after movies and dramas after dramas and sleeeppp and eaaaaattt and exercise too. hehehe :D i got my dramas ready but i think i might need more dramas tho. lol. kay ill continue talking crap later now i need my TV, its been a while *not really actually* but whatever i bored. kay kay i go now.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS FOUNDATION IN COMM STUDENTS!

he is so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
you caught my heart hehe

ttyl flowers, xo

Thursday, July 9, 2009

almost there

ALMOST THERE FOR MY SECOND SEMESTER TO BE OVERRRR!!
HOLIDAAAAAYY! BUTTTTTTT STUDY FIRST! Nyeeeehhhh!!!! Grrr
LAST paper tmrw but its IMC meaning harddddddd..
kay kay no more CHOI-ing *touching wood* hehe
XD

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

out of nowhere

have you seen the moon tonight? i wish you were nearby.

im annoyed. aaaaaaaaaaaaargghhh.. one word FUCK OFF. but why? I HAVE NO IDEA! wth la right? had to send mum all the way to subang and dude i was just there just now for college! then yesss i got lost after sending her, went to shah alam because fuck knows which part of subang i was at. followed whatever mum said but it turns out wrong i dont know ah. damn cibai. super annoyed. those fucking drivers too. yes yesss. today i was a cibai driver, sorry mates. its not a good night for me. i guess period is coming. out of nowhere im like super pissed off.

so nway the moon tonight, fucking exquisite, the color is not the same as two nights ago. this one is THE SHIZNIT! fuck awesome. yes all my sentences have swear words. i apologise, i just cant help it but whatever its my blog. but again THE MOON IS BEAUTIFUL! but considering im living in the freaking city i dont see many stars more like no stars. if not it could add on to they beauty of the night sky that God has created for us.

okay im off now, gotta go STUDY STUDY STUDY. so they say laa.. bought redbulls already. been craving for it. hah! kaaayy. oh fuck yeah! saw my leng chai in college. but shit i have no idea who you are but i know you are super good looking to me. =))

you're still unpredictable, but its okay i like you.

xo flowers.

Monday, July 6, 2009

fly me to the moon

have you seen the moon tonight? its exquisite. i just love bright bright fullmoon. it just takes my heart away without miss. so fly me to the moon, and let me play among the stars..let me see what springs is like, and jupiter and mars. in other words hold my hand, in other words darling kiss me. fill my heart with song and let me sing forever more. you are all i long for, all i worship and adore. in other words, please be true.. in other words i love you...

where did you go? why oh why..

love is a battlefield.

im not happy, im distracted and confused.

xo

weeds season 5

weeds is baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!! wohhoooo! its time to smoke up people, LOL.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

shaggy

From now on, you can't tell lies, are you ready?
haha sure

Think back six months ago, were you single? Who are you dating?
i was not available because i was busy missing ilyas. hehe :D

What do you carry with you at all times?
my smile haha

When you say you don't care, do you mean it?
it depends on the situation cause sometimes i really dont care =/

How are you feeling?
confused

Is something wrong right now?
not really, its just me you know, paranoid.

Are you mad at someone?
annoyed, yes

What's on your mind?
finalfinalsfinals, and boyy you make me wonder a lot

Are you jealous of someone right now?
i dont know, maybe.

Do you want to start over with anyone?
whats done is done bro.

Do you know if anyone likes you?
i wish i know whether you do like me or not. haha

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
wuuu, yaa

What are you supposed to be doing right now?
STUDYING!

True love or 1 billion bucks?
money money money.

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
they always says your mata SEPET! hahaha :D

Anything you would change about your life right now?
probably, maybe, perhaps, not so sure laa

Could you cry right now?
yes

Do you ever think about stuff and start crying?
yes

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
quite a lot

Are you okay with the life you live?
yes

Last person you told a secret to ?
hmm

Do you like hugs?
yes, cuddles in bed.

Do you believe true love can conquer anything?
apparently so.

When was the last time you cried?
quite recent tho but cant remember when it was. i guess it was one of those movies i watched

How much money did you spend today?
nada

What's something you really want right now, be honest.
the truth and answers.

How do you feel about your hair right now?
haha good question! i just had a haircut yesterdaaayyy.. i guess i like it. but grr its a lil shorter than i wanted it to be. nyehh

What did you do yesterday?
i was being a nice cousin, sister and bestfriend. picked them up and sent them wherever they wanted me to. then Mi and i went to the salon and we both have almost the same hairstyle now. altho mine is a lil shorter. nyehh then we went to damai with Li, and lepak with Mi until i fell asleep. sorryy Mi! i fell asleep.

Would you forgive a friend for telling your biggest secret?
hmm. depending who she told. communication is irreversible anyway.

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you speak with them?
Mi, Alissa, Cik Lat, gene, friends and collegemates.

When's the last time you said you were fine and you really weren't?
last saturday =/

Is someone on your mind right now?
yup yup

Who's birthday is coming up?
gene's and nadhir's, i dont really know many people who was born in july. aha

Were you happy when you woke up?
big no.

What's the last thing you ate?
cornflake cookies

Are you easy to get along with?
ya

Ever cheated on someone?
=/

Who is the last person to send you a text?
gene

What are you currently listening to?
mix.fm

Saturday, July 4, 2009

"i was once skinny"

yes yes, im paranoid! hahahaha i found this picture, while i was bored so i looked through my old pictures. then jeng jeng jeng, i was like WTH mate! thats meeeeeee... hahaha fuck i was once skinny, and thats my proof! hahahahahaha. but then now, not anymore.. gaaarrr! but its a good thing cause i was skinny during my school prom! hahahahaha! LOL :D

kay i have to study for my finals since i havent done shit..

still im not so sure about you.

later flowers, xo

Thursday, July 2, 2009

class event, AWESOME shit.

words behing meanings, meanings behind words. thats the name of our event, and it happened when? YESTERDAY! how was it? SUPER FUN! hehe. aaahh i love my booth, so much fun. THANKS ALTHEA JASMINE AND WEI WEN! anddd everyone in FICM JAN 09! Ms Mary, Ms T, Terran, Norman, Fu Wang, Ken, Suzuki and the people that came to our event! we also made new friends! :D
meet Fu Wang, my new friend. hahaha. he's so shy.
Can i take a picture of you? so that i can show santa what i want for christams. :D
he became my victim of pick up lines.
and i got his number! hahaha :D
aahh sim, our tshirt santa for the day. hahaha
my gang! at our tribute for mj thingy
RIP MJ
weeeeee.. :D

michael jackson played pool with us, ahahhahahahahaahaha :D

after all that fun, we played pool for three hours, and went drinking for abit. lepak lepak and chat here and thereeeee.. weeeee.. i had so much fun!

so much loveeeee...

you're a still unpredictable to me.
i feel super insecure
because i like you.

later flowers, xo