lazy to talk

i just want enough freedom, thats it.
i need to study harder.
bye x

my Ryo

i cant get enough of him. he's just soooo gorgeous.. well although he is really but its more like a dream, atleast he doesnt disappoint me. but then dont get married so fast yeaaa, im waiting for a miracle to happen so that i can see you atleast once in my life. ah heck just marry me you beautiful thing. hahhahahahaha. i know, im crazyyy but whatever i just love him so much i could die. his voice his face his body his lips his eyes his hair. aaahh everything about him i likeeeeee! the way he talk the way he act the way he sing, dammnnn maaaann i cant get enough of him. i want moreeeee.. grr. hahaha.


itsumo aishteru nishikido ryo!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

abc

i havent blogged in a awhile. internet is just super lousy nowadays. it wasnt working like for a two days i think i cant recall. it was hell i tell you having no internet haha. so anyway, im gonna fast for 12 daysm gonna start tmrw. i have to ganti laaaaaa. haihh.. hope to play pool tmrw. its been a boring few days. nyehh

night flowers, x

apple and choc milk

aaahhh.. study study study. now im taking a break well it has been almost 30 minutes break. hahahaha. lazy la tired la. haiyaaa. today or more like yesterday althea and i played pool for free. hahaha the lady at the counter is pregnant and she wasnt paying attention to us so yeaahh. we paid 15 bucks she gave us 13 bucks. today after exams we are going to play pool again, now almost everyday i play pool. haha have to brush up my skills! aaahh i suckkk..

i want to watch a movie, i want to go dancing, i want to lepak with my friends, i want to go out and have fun.

i burnt you and flushed you down the drain. LOL.
talk more later, x

first part of war

the first part of the war was aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh, can almost win ALMOST, i knew that she's gonna give the bloody exact questions. haha. i saw it, i felt it but i can just be too confident kan. but yeah the first part of my war wasnt that bad. i did my best, we just have to wait to see the outcome of it yeaaa.. apparently now i smoke like a chimneyhhh, if im out ah ofcourse, if i stay at home i can tahan of not smoking abuden if im out, cannoooottt. haha. now its like on box of 14 can last two days max sia, last time was 5 days! there goes my moneyyy.. story of my life. i dont know what else to say now. kay ah i have to prepare for my other parts of war. i shall get ready to survive this war and WIN WIN WIN! haha.

later, x

war

i'm preparing for my war. i hope i'll survive it. well i'm just so lazy to blog so yeah. all the best to my classmates yeaa..

hmm

i need my beloved ciggies to make me feel beetter now now now. aargghh.. shit la

dizzy

wuuuuu.. its 3am plus. i'm almost done with my essay abuden tak cukup words. i have like 755 words and i need to make it to 850 words. urghhh super annoying cause i am super lazy i tell youu.. i want to finish it now but my head is not okay. haha im dizzy apparently, i think i need to sleep like nowwww.. i will la i guess, continue everything tmrw morning.

oh and just now i watched a freakishly disgusting movie called Hostel. fucking shit weyy the way the killed those people damn horrible kay! they use all the possible weapon or whatsoever to cut you into pieces. aaaahh shit weeyy.. those people torture foreigners.. aaahhh. they will do anything. cut off you fingers one by one or even take out youf freaking eyeballs or just drill a hole somewhere on your body.. ahh just plain shitty. haha

kay la ciao ciao for now,
night flowers, x

random shits

first of all. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!!! stress! okay next congratulations to MAN UNITED!! haha. and apparently flo rida produce damn nice songs ahh. haha i just downloaded his two albums and im listening to it right now. and its all goooooddd.. one more day for mid sem exams. aaahh die die die. LOL. i have to get GOOD GRADES so meaning no sleep tonight. oh well.. nways i want to go dancing sia, so badly. nyeh. oh btwwww, i just watched nick and norah's infinite playlist, super adorable movieeeee, go watch it seriouslyyyyy.. apparently i have been watching a few other movies as well but then i should be studying! haha. kay la i go study now seriously i will kay kay..

night lovers, x

i hate this part right here. gaahh..

yesterday today tmrw

it wasnt a good day today, i mean yesterday. hmm i dont know. hope for a better day. i want to go on a short weekend trip with my classmates! we must! caryn's birthday is cominggg. =) i want to relax, i need it. too much in my head, gaaahh.. i studied already but not enough yet. and i havent started with my essay?!?!??!?!!! i dont know why, my brain and my body doesnt want to start just yet but i have a full idea on how to do it and everything already. i prepared my sources and i have to read the articles again, and its urgh super longggg... oh btw like the new layout? haha, its still just plain as it always been. but whatever, lazy ah. i want to go out with sleepy. lol

night flowers, x

noise regrets hope

5 hours of sleep and woke up due to the noise. almost everyday i wake up because of the noise. yes now i cant wait for college on monday so i dont have to face the noise as often. dancing thoughts in my head please stop dancing. concentrate on other things. go go, damn it. i need some inspiration to keep me going, keep me alive. i have to do my work i have to study i have to focus, focus, focus.

i need a get away, i want to go somewhere even for a day. leave me at peace. a road trip or whatsoever anything.

i dont think i was in love with you, i realized i only liked the idea of you and i but guess what it was all bullshit. yes it was, i am moving for better things rather than hanging on to nothing. life's to short to wait for useless and unappreciated things. i admit i regret why it happen in the first place. i should have thought deeper. i was more disappointed at myself for not thinking wisely. but i was upset but it didnt put me to tears, guess you're are not worth my tears. okay its a lie la i cried a little only, LOL. WHATEVER la.

did i mention, i went out with sleepy and i think he's just so cute. haha :D it was funny in a weird way. hope we'll go out again soon.

i hope i'll have a good day today.
talk more later flowers, x

kill me

i feel so insecure now. ah i hate this. i need to study and finish up my assignment. damn it, kill me. i need some inspiration.

mum love smile

first of all, HAPPY MOTHERS DAY! to all mothers and ofcourse to my beloved MOTHER!. I Love You Forever.

aaahh, i went to the pasar tani today. yes i had to. woke up by force again, sigh. then err there were cow brains! who eats it? ewwww... i saw it ah shit.. super eww.. nways then i had nothing better to do, i counted there were 8 beggars total at the pasar tani. oh dear lord. after helping mum with everything else when we got home, i fell asleep. i was bloody tired. then had to wake up because had to drive mum to the supermarket. haihh, can never sleep peacefully you know. then i had a nice lunch while watching some i dont know thai or philipines movie, 100 Days with Mr.Arrogant. such a not bad movie, kinda cute actually. ngehh. i had to deal with rubbish just now! ah stupid ass cat go and koyakkan the plastic so then part of the rubbish was out of the plastic. stupid ass cat again!. so i had to clean it cause if i dont ill feel uneasy so i had to settle with the rubbish thingyy.. and there were LOTS OF FLIES! damn it super EWWW!! too bad i did not vibrate. hahahah! i took the shieldtox to spray them awaaayy, bloody flies dah la it was smelly..

after all that my lifesavers came over. Mi and Li. We went out to KLCC 'to walk at the park'. then aaaaahhh all those rempits were like parasite you know. super duper annoying. then there was this group followed us and was talking to me. nyehh. then went to damai and lepak there. then megat came with his brother megat. haha. then he is also my lifesaver, he has sleepy's number. and i called sleepy! using megat's phone. weeeeee.. he remember that we are going out next weeekkkk.. i was super happy! cant stop laughinggg. hahaha. im so lame! so now i have his number! hehe.. i likeeeeeeeee.. then Mi, Li and i went back to my place and watched The Univited more like The Uninteresting. Super stupid and very confusing movie. and here i thought it would be some really horor movie, cehh..

Kay la thats all, i dont know what stupid things to say besides that aaaaaaaahhh.. i talked to him on the phone just nowww, i likeeeeeeee.. i cant stop smiling. haha.

Goodnight Flowers, x

dance chores money

everytime when i go to althea's blog alwaaayys make me feel like going clubbing. shit weyy!! i do want to sia. i want to danceeeee! i need it, just too much in my headd. aaaaahhh..

did my chores again today, as usual la kan. if im not gonna do it who else is going to do it. trust me no one will. woke up today because my mum was yelling at me, to help her. yesss what a great start of the morning. lol. i want to go out i'm bored. BUT i have to STUDY too. yes yes i know. oh and shit i forgot that i have an assignment to do. haha SHIT..

i want to buy clothes or shoes. ah shit! no money, sucks.

talk more late, x

idiots

my mid sem break starts now. well i have things to do, i cant laze around as much as i use to for now, sigh. but its okay. nway, im happy that i had a happy moment recently, since its been a while besides Ryo making me smile each time i look at his picture or listening to his voice. but anyway, i am hoping and wishing that my 'date' comes true, just have to get his number tho.

today, when i drove there were A LOT of bloody idiot drivers, so yeaahh. super annoying shit weyy. i was calling everyone stupid for driving so stupidly! urgh!

nways, thats all for now. i am super duper tired.
me want to dream about my Ryo. hehe

Night Flowers, x

car wash

wehh super tired siaaaaa.. been doing my chores the whole dayy.. grr. and i finally washed my baby and wax it sooooo, i feel so nice to drive it noww.. i did it all by myself haha hint im small and washing a big car, lol. lookie hereee.. and my baby cik lat waited for me till i was done with my car. lol

Well anyway, i had a happy moment last night, i finally asked sleepy out. haha but i didnt get his number? wth? hahaha, will ask him the next time i catch him online, hopefully soon enough la! causeeeee i told him we should go out next week, so yeaaahh.. nyehh

tmrw is going to be the last day of class then a week break then exams. aaahhh sucky muchh.. but whatever laa, atleast there's break i can rest a little although i still have chores to do! aahh my maid went back to her countryyy, she's only coming back in June, 20th! aaaaaaaaaaaahh! dieeeeeee..

Kay i shall go now, i have work to do LOL.

Night Flowers, xo

super dreamy

HE MAKES ME HAPPY, unlike someone who just makes me sad. haha. I wish to MARRY you Nishikido Ryo. yess i feel stupid but i dont care. Tomorrow i shall talk about him! he is just SUPER DREAMY!

Nights Flowers.

day maid baby

when im want to move on, to forget the miseries, you are there! what the hell! GAAAAHHHH.

what a day sia. BAD COMMENTS from the lecturer for our presentation, ceh! i think we did it better but she commented more about the negative part besides complimenting us. kay fine she did laaaa complimented us. but nyeeehhh!! then during break we ate then we had beers, some of us la. one bottle onlyyy. haha to release our tensions apparently. saw sleepy eyes. weeee, kawaii. but not so sure anymore if im gonna ask him out or not. malu sia.

no maid for a month plus, yessss im dying! ma cibai. whatever la im sure we all can leave with it. and my baby which is my car is so dirty!! i have to wash it! damn it, kesian my baby. lol

btw i think you are full of shit. everything feels like its just bullshit.

kay la talk more later, x

weekend

my weekend away from home was not bad. friday and saturday was at pd then sunday was at Mi's hse, well today i mean. haha. had trouble sleeping at pd since i havent slept in a kampung hse in so looooonggg, so yeaahh. and im paranoid. lol. The antique cars was beautiful i must say. well nothing much happen tho, there were moments where we got bored haha. but atleast we had each other. things i havent done in so long which were going to the beach and being in a kampung area, i finally done it.

Today i woke up late then had breakfast then i fell asleep and woke up to eat. hahaha. then had a chocolate evening today with Mi and Li. Li picked us up at Mi's hse, then went to pavilion lepak at Chocolate. then walked around for abit, we saw Rashdan with his grandparents, then lepak my hse. It was a nice evening, plus Li is a life saver if not i have no idea how im gonna go home. haha.

Thanks Mi and Li.

i have a few photos btw, enjoyy..

Mi's Buggy, lol

you need two parking space to park this car. haha

volkswagen

i love this car. Nissan Figaro
its auto you knowww. haha

Queen of Rock n Roll, or something like that la its called, lol.

easy said chocolate shake..

good night flowers, x