Terrified

Hii. So I'm on my holiday and I'm not working this time. Pretty bummed about not working also. Oh well. Anyway I'm leaving to Adelaide next year, it looks like its for real this time. I've been talking about studying overseas since I was 17 and now I'm 20 and I'm going pretty soon. I'm excited because I've been wanting to do it however at the same time I'm pretty scared, really. I know its only for a year and one year pass by so fast now. But in one year a lot of things can happen.

I'll be away from mum, lil sister, daddy and the brothers. I'm don't want to leave my cats either, they all depend on me somehow. I take care of them the most. Also I'll be on my own in Adelaide, totally going to miss home like crazy. What's worse is that I'm not sure if I get to see my best friend anytime soon. I miss her so much, I'm having tears just by typing this out. Mi, you know how much I support you living the dream but I really miss you. When you left it took me a while to recover, I sort of cried, a lot. Heh.. Ah then Ciklat my baby cat, she's old already and who's going to take care of her? Fauza, kakak hope you will take care of her and the other cats properly.

I guess I'll be celebrating my 21st birthday without my family and without Mi again.

The year is gonna end soon and it was a roller coaster.

I'm still wishing for the feeling to come back.

Its empty, its lonely, its sad.