no point

well im so bored here at college. im having my break and az is not here yet! urgh, how awesome spending ur break alone right? haha lame i tell you. so nway while waiting for her to finally arrive i shall blog about this thing that has been bothering me

define love? wtf is that? can you fall in love more than once? i think its possible, like what az said, its just the phase. everyone is going through it. once you already love someone, you will always love them eventho not as much as it used to be but you still love them. you may not realize it but its true. even if you had a bad break-up

currently im reading this book called The Zahir by Paulo Coelho. you should read The Alchemist also! nway, i just read half of The Zahir and this guy who is a writer, he wants to know why his wife left him but then she didnt left him yet cause she didnt say goodbye, she just left him without saying anything. its been two years he is still waiting for her. still wanting to know why.

Zahir in Arabic means visible, present, incapable of going unnoticed It is someone or something which, once we have to come into contact with them or it, gradually occupies our every thought, until we can think of nothing else. this can consider as state of holiness or madness

People are happy when they are at war because for them the world has meaning. Total sacrificing themselves for a cause gives meaning to their lives. They are capable of limitless love, because they no longer have anything else to lose. A fatally wounded soldier never asks the medical team; 'please save me!' His last words are usually; 'Tell my wife and son that i love them'. At the last moment they speak of love. -The wife, Esther told the husband that. This was her reason to become a war correspondent.

The day that a man allows true love to appear, those things which are well made will fall into the confiusion and will overturn everything we believe to be right and true. The world will become real when man learns how to love, until then we will live in the belief that we know what love is, but we will always lack the courage to confront is as it truly is.

Love is an untamed force. When we try to control it, it destroys us. When we try to imprison it, it enslaves us. When we try to understand it, it leaves us feeling lost and confused.

This force is on earth to make us happy, to bring us closer to God and to our neighbour.

All of these are from the book. i totally agree with it ah.

i was really heartbroken about my past relationship i think maybe because he left me, so yeah. if i was the one who left him i wouldnt be so heartbroken right? it took me a while to get over it and now im half over is already so its cool. but then to think back all this yeah it does takes time to get over things like this but its not that worth it to think about it. its like a total waste of time. oh well, i dont think about him anymore and somehow im happier now compared to last few weeks. haha. life goes on. its a journey and anything can happen in a journey right?

For one more day by mitch albom also another good book. if only i had the chance to go back to one of the days when we were together, maybe i could have make things right or just a day where you and i can talk about this. i'm not angry or mad at you, just abit dissapointed. and you left me hanging, since im a part of this i want to know why cause you didnt tell me the reason. everyday i wonder why.

loves is actually beautiful when you really look at it. aha im just a sucker for love. oh well what can i really do about it? in fact i am making changes in my life now. i can admit this time that i am happy =)

working on getting good grades right now since mid semester exam is around the corner! and daddy has been bugging me about my grades and classes and all la, err annoying abit ah. i keep on avoiding to answer whatever he asked me haha.

*im hungrryyyyy. somebody take me out to watch maid of honor please!!!
challo, xo