eye candy

i'm giving up on you with a smile. i mean its time, dont you think so? waiting and waiting for a person, sometimes the person might not be worth waiting for. i mean, apparently i been there. hahaha. it was worth it when we were together then after that it was just nyehhh!! LOL.

so nwaaayyss.. back to my pain story from the previous post. it was my very own cat Cik Yah that bit me, cause she got stuck between the freaking automatic gate. idiot also, cause she knew i was opening the gate she quickly went thru the side thinking she's the flash. grrr but i felt bad cause i was the one who opened it. andd at that time i was in a hurry. i was late, class was at 8 and it was 7.30 at that time and it was raining. so yeaahh. well she's fine, thank God. and im fine too. just have to bear with the pain, which it still hurts now. haihh.. the place where i get injected at my arm which is near my shoulder, whatever you call that part is, i mean its at the place where the doctor always give you an injection ah, kay thereee. its hurtingggg. gah, in one freaking hand, my left hand ah, i have two pain to deal with. haiyaa..

oh andd, you know i never told you that i actually have an eye candy in college :) but i dont know who he is but apparentlyyyyy i have a friend who knows him. hehe. since i dont know his name so i call him my leng chai. :D he's is aaaahhhh super good looking (for me aahh) and i always see him in formal wear, so yess thats why i have my eyes on him. funny thing is that im not sure whether he's chinese or malay. haha!

ohh and nowww i have lots of thinking to do about several things. aahh my brain needs to work properly since i kind switched it off for two weeks. nyehh.

i'm doing just fine with the situation im in.

later flowers, xo.

paaain

im in pain, shitttttttt... im typing with on hand. lol. but aaaahh, pain pain. tell you why later when i take my pain killer, now im just dealing with it. i had to take an injetion and duddeeee OUCH much! depress ah now =(

difficult

i was at the verge of giving up. and i knew this going to happen, that you'll appear as soon as i felt like giving up. why oh why i've tried so hard. you have no idea. i have many questions going around in my head. i just need answers, i dont care what the answers are going to be. i only need answers thats all, then i can make up my mind. im going crazy, do you have any idea how i've been? no, cause you never asked. its been a while. hmm, i'm a little tired of this but still too stubborn to give up.

somehow this time, i cant let it be.

semester 3 starts tmrw. praying for better semester,better grades and better experiences. :)

goodnight flowers, xo

RIP Yasmin Ahmad

Yasmin ahmad - you are definitely my idol and will always be. and sad to say i didnt have the chance to even meet you at least once in my life. but your great works inspires me, therefore ill try to continue on what you do best but with my own ways. im sure you have touch many hearts as how you have touched mine. and im very greatful to have you as one of my idol and also that you are from the same country as i am. rest in peace and may Allah bless you. i'll pray for you. Inalilah, Al-Fatihah. i no matter what will watch all the great films that you directed. im trying to get my hands on all your films, ill own all the dvds cause you inspire me. again, rest in peace and Al-Fatihah. Takziah to your family.

http://www.themalaysianinsider.com.my/index.php/malaysia/33301-get-well-wishes-pour-in-for-yasmin-ahmad

She was reported to have suffered a stroke and brain haemorrhage


xo

hmm

i want to feel better. it hurts thinking about it all. make me feel better. you told me you'll be my crying shoulder, i need your shoulder now. you said you going to be my best friend, so are you willing to listen about whats on my mind? hmm..

still waiting, wishing, wondering
but im praying at the same time for Yasmin Ahmad.

lets all pray

im praying for Yasmin Ahmad. please be okay. please.. i dont know what else to say. im just so sad right now. i have no idea what to do except to pray for you. hoping and wishing that you'll be fine. wake up, wake up, wake up. fight, fight, you still have so much more to do here.

Ya Allah please, give her strength, please please please. save her.

happy not

not happy. disappointed, frustrated, dissatisfied. enough said. but then whats done is done. have to study harder for the next semester. no more playing around. gotta increase my cgpa, yess.. and shit i have a freaking C+ in my results. SAD, very. disappointing apparently. haih

you, i dont know. you are driving me crazy yet im still waiting. hmm
i want to see you or atleast hear your voice, it would make me very happy.

i think i have a crush on Caprice. haha :D he's sexyyyy..

later flowers, xo

hope is a lie

its because i hope too much, it hurts. well its true that they say, hope is a lie that keeps you going.

what is it that you really want?
tell me, i need to know.

xo

move move

had a nice weird weekend. went for Sabrina's party. fun fun. and the following day for bon odori, which i MISSED IT! because we got lost. fuck it wey. shah alam road heck i know nothing. gaarrrr. i felt so bad to my sister and her friend and Mi. we made it but then it ended 3mins after that. ma cibai.

one more week till class starts, yeay. im so bored at home being like a pig. i like keeping myself busy. more japanese drama to watch now. oh and thanks to my cousin's unwanted clothes i make use of it =)) need bigger wardrobe now. cant wait to move out of the room but actually felt a little sad. no longer sharing room with my little sister =/

i have plans to make and things to do before class starts. dinner with syafiq, lepak with arslan, movie with terran althea jasmine wei wen and etc. take Mi's dvd from my cousin, take Cik lat to the vet, wash the cars. nyehh!!!

p.s im actually super lazy to blog, dont know why but yeah. im making an effort apparently.

i want to be with you, just want to be with you.

i like hearing your voice, it makes me happy.

but still, hmm.. i dont know.

kay ah later later flowers, xo

what now

im done with
1. brothers and sisters season 1 and 2. thanks to Simitha! :D
2. the bride and the father. (japanese) thanks to Mi.
3. proposal daisakusen. (japanese), thanks to Mi again

i had tears watching all these dvds

well im gonna watch sopranos season 1 since i found the dvd in my brother's room. hehe. and maybe any movies that i can find to help me kill tim during the holidays. today im going for my cousin Sabrina 18th birthday. and tmrw will be going for Bon Odori Festival =) and MAYBE to Afiq's birthday after the festival. nyehh. i have been going out since last saturday. lol

you are confusing me yet i'm still here, wondering.
im waiting for that fullmoon that i feel in love with.
you were always on my mind and it cant be helped.
i tried to avoid thinking about you but i think about you even more.

and now jeng jeng jeng...

NISHIKIDO RYO!

he made me feel better, always :D

♥ ♥

*melts melts melts*

later flowers, xo