sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy

YES YES YESSS! Me is going to PD with Mi!!! hahahaa. antique car exhibition to release my mind. i wanted to talk about my day buttttt, maybe later or tmrw kinda lazyy a little. haha. im trying to finish 3 of my journals entries by tonight. i finished one already. aha.

aaaaaahhh SLEEPY! , you are so on my mind, damn it. when are you going to say hi to me? :D and when am i going to finally ask you out? haha but i still havent got your number. how? LOL

say what

i hate it when my perdana is at home and im not going out and i can go out! aaahhh. i want to go out, im just super bored! well i did went out today tho, lepak at desa with Liyana and Fatin. and i saw Mubin and Happy birthday again btw. seeing today, made me have flash backs about us. haha, so corny siaaaa.

i really want to ask sleepy out tho but but butttt im freaking shy sia! damn it, im afraid of rejections. aaaaaa.. but i talked to him only twice before this but only for a bit, sigh. he seems to be busy jeee. but but he spoke some malay, aiyaaaa i likeeee. making me cair only haha. i havent even ask for his number yet. super malu dohh.. but i really do want to ask him out. haha damn it, im such a freak lol

nway Mi invited me to go to PD this weekend, but have to ask me parents first. butttt there's an ANTIQUE CARS exhibition (idk how to spell it, wtv) so yeaaaahh.. plus i need my time to go out and have fun too..

i hate going thru shits laaa. aiyayayaaaaa.. kay la nway, i go noww. chiow chiow

yesterday was mum's bday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM, Love you.

xx

grow hair!

i miss my hair! aaaaaaaaaaarrgghhh, grow faster!!

miss miss

okay. today i finally decided that i should date other people. aaahh i gotta brush up my skills, not sure if i actually have any. haha. so whatever la kan. felt like i lost my touch also. ohh maybe i should get sleepy eyes' number. he had a hair cut. super dreamy laaaaa.. haha

and i feel like i miss a lot of people right now! aaaaaaaahhhh.. the people i miss which im not so sure who, i miss youuu. lets meet!! gaaahh, my social life have gone down the drain. hahaha. kay kay i know la a few who i miss kan, likeeeeeeeeeee.. Ilyas, Syahir, Tasnim, Siddiq, MI!, Alissa, Keyna, Diyanna, Syafiq, Jen and Tracee!... and others i dont knoowww who elseee, hahaha.

oh well. talk more later. seriously lazy like mad la.

life's a bitch but whatever. Nights, love.

nice day lies wtf

i had a nice day i must say. it involves friends, alcohol, games, cigarettes and lots of nice conversations. after class finishes we went to finnegan's (did i spelled correctly?) okay nway, we reach at around 2pm ish then like althea and jasmine left at around 4pm ish, then caryn amber beka and michelle left around 6pm ish, then left sim miss T and i we left at 9pm! hahaha.. it was fun, it was great actually. i really needed that good evening, just to relax and chat here and there.

i dont understand why people dont tell the truth? why must the lie! lies leads you to no where, seriously why do you have to lie. you disappoint me. i told you so many times to just be honest, i'm so open and will accept whatever. but lying?! and i'm finding out about it, its just terrible, it hurts okay. its like i been stabbed, not just once. possibilities that the other things are just bullshit as well. you as a liar never crossed my mind but now you just changed my mind. and it aint my fault. its your fault, its because of your actions. you lied!

i'm not bragging but i have been so nice to you eventhough i know you lied but then you lied even more seriously irritates me.

tummy aches because of the alcohol, aahh i bet its dancing in my tummy still. haha

tiring

apparently the habit of blogging havent come yet. im just so tired of everything right now seriously. i need a holidaaayy a long peaceful holiday with no interruptions. we had our mass comlypics or watever they call it yesterday. im super tired right now. running so much all of a sudden with no exercise is so not cool. both my legs hurts sia. i havent fully study yet, damn it. i gotta study now.

then and now

these used to make me happy.

now these makes me happy. dreamy dreamy dreamyyyyy..

that includes my bestest friend ever and my classmates, and the boys.

mwaahh.. haha

my current obsession

he is my current obsession. oh how i wish i could just marry him right now. although i know on our wedding day i might pass out since he is just super duper gorgeous. yes yes i sound like one of the fan girls ey? so uncool syaza. haha. but whatever. he is just a gift from God. he sings, he dance, he act. all these three things he does it so well. apparently he's a shy person. makes him even more adorable to meeeeeeeeee.. haha. his body is just smoking hot. thats the body i want in a guy. lol.. *drools* nishikido ryo, aishteru!! haha. i wonder if he can speak english?! we need to communicate!!! haha. he can be dorky too, aaaahhhh im meltinggg.. blame my bestfriend! Mi you made me this waaaayy! haha but thanks by the wayy.. you opened my eyes about japenese people, i mean how they are and stuff. ryo chan kawaii!!

im lame i know, shutup. haha.

birthday

happy birthday to me. 18 years old already? interesting, never thought i would reach the legal age. whatever illegal stuff i have done some of it. haha now its not fun anymore cause im legal. wanted a happy birthday, but now im not so happy. well i still have the whole day to go through it. hopefully a good dream maybe to make me feel better. thanks Mi, ilyas, sim, keyna, tas, erik, ike, my sis and penan for wishing me. those are the ppl so far lol. waiting for someone but whatever. no one has ever out beat the sweetest birthday presents when i was 14 and 16. guitar and singing, aaaaaahhh.. oh well..



happy birthday to zira, alex pettyfer and mandy moore.



cheerio, x

not so much

i had a month holiday. from two weeks to three weeks to a month. yes yes, it was nice but i didnt do much, was just in KL. been driving alot been doing nothing made me felt so useless. since i practically have no idea what to do. but i did la do some useful work, like driving my sister to school and fetch her back. took care of my cousins baby. cleaned my room a little. not as many as i expected haha, i thought of doing some reading not novel readings but useful readings about my religion but that didnt turn out at all. oh well, now i need to make my brain to work properly! get better grades!! i have to beat SIM!!!! haha ;D

i recently watched a japanese drama, thanks to Mi. it was called One Litre of Tears. it was good, it touched my heart. and not only that i was in love with the actor ofcourse! his character was just super duper sweet, how i wish i had a boyfriend or a friend like that. no shit. haha. ill show you his picture. =))

meet Nishikido Ryo. kawaii. :D haha

college has started, yesterday was the first day of my 2nd semester. it was good so far. all the lectures werent that bad.. hopefully to have a better semester. and it was nice to see everyone again.

not so much of a good day today. tmrw no class, can chill at home and read newpapers. haha. i apologies for the lack of blogging, lazy lazy. but now prolly the habit of blogging gonna come back again.

later flowers, x