imaginary

God willing

2012-01-25T21:19:00.003+08:00

I dont really know what to say here. I've been on Tumblr too much. Haha. So its around two weeks more before I leave for Adelaide. I'm pretty excited about it of course. I've started packing! Hahaha. It was a difficult task because I have so many clothes and I wish I could take them all with me but I can't so yeahhh. I did my best to lessen the amount of clothes. I can say it was a success so far. There a still little little things that I need to pack in. I made space for that so most probably it would be okay. :)

I am excited because there's so many things that I am going to face. New challenges, new experiences, new adventure! Thinking about it just makes me pretty happy and curious. Hehe. However still kinda scared but I'll face it eventually. Its only for a year so I'll be back soon. I have to go through this before reaching my dreams. These are one of the steps that I need to take to fulfill my dream.

Insyallah everything will go smoothly.

Love.

2012-01-19T04:31:00.000+08:00

Leaving for Adelaide in 3 weeks. Excited and scared.

Terrified

2011-12-09T00:44:00.002+08:00

Hii. So I'm on my holiday and I'm not working this time. Pretty bummed about not working also. Oh well. Anyway I'm leaving to Adelaide next year, it looks like its for real this time. I've been talking about studying overseas since I was 17 and now I'm 20 and I'm going pretty soon. I'm excited because I've been wanting to do it however at the same time I'm pretty scared, really. I know its only for a year and one year pass by so fast now. But in one year a lot of things can happen.

I'll be away from mum, lil sister, daddy and the brothers. I'm don't want to leave my cats either, they all depend on me somehow. I take care of them the most. Also I'll be on my own in Adelaide, totally going to miss home like crazy. What's worse is that I'm not sure if I get to see my best friend anytime soon. I miss her so much, I'm having tears just by typing this out. Mi, you know how much I support you living the dream but I really miss you. When you left it took me a while to recover, I sort of cried, a lot. Heh.. Ah then Ciklat my baby cat, she's old already and who's going to take care of her? Fauza, kakak hope you will take care of her and the other cats properly.

I guess I'll be celebrating my 21st birthday without my family and without Mi again.

The year is gonna end soon and it was a roller coaster.

I'm still wishing for the feeling to come back.

Its empty, its lonely, its sad.

2011-11-13T19:44:00.002+08:00

Life seems so simple yet so lonely. Best friend is far away. Boy best friend is drifting. I spend more time with myself and my cats instead of people excluding my family. I miss those people that I was once very close with.

Yo

2011-10-23T23:37:00.005+08:00

Omg I haven't updated shit here for so looooooong! No like anyone reads it anyway. Haha but damn I miss my best friend. Come home soon okay Mi and stay safe in Japan.
One of the reason why I haven't been here much is because of Tumblr :D http://imaginarysya.tumblr.com/

I've got so much shit to deal with during my one week holidays. Praying and hoping things will go well!

content

2011-07-01T23:55:00.002+08:00

Hii.. My brother got married today. My second brother but the first wedding in the family! I'm so happy for him. I almost cried when I saw the bride hugging the parents with teary eyes. Anyhow, then, I had some troubles with my ears for like to weeks. My left ears, too much earwax I couldn't hear properly. Haha, so when to visit the ENT and after he cleaned my ears and did some hearing test then he treated me for free! How cool is he? THANK YOU DOCTOR! And he's actually my neighbour. Then my sister and I went for B2ST / BEAST concert! OMG IT WAS EPIC! IT WAS AMAZING that I'm really really happy! They are such great performers and I'm such a proud fan. The waiting in the hot sun made it all worth it. Thank you God for giving me such an amazing day! Totally one of the best days of my life. :) I spent today with my family in various events. ♥

Day 13 and 14

2011-06-20T22:47:00.002+08:00

Day 13 Your opinion about your body and how comfortable you are with it.
Well as a typical girl I think I'm fat sometimes. Haha but my best friend will always say you're not fat you're just chubby. Sometimes I'm comfortable with it since I'm kinda curvy but I do have fats here and there la. I'm not skinny for sure. I'm petite as some would say. Sometimes I am comfortable with my body and happy with it sometimes I wish I could be slightly skinnier. I just don't fancy my unflattering stomach and thunder thighs. Haha. My girlfriends say I got nice ass. Lol.

Day 14 What you wore today.
Well today I wore shorts and a simple slightly floral top and flip flops. Went out shopping with that since usually I'll wear simple outfits for shopping. :)

Day 12

2011-06-19T22:53:00.009+08:00

Day 12- Five guys you find attractive
This is an interesting question and I'm going to include pictures ;)
But its actually a tough one to pick five guys with the perfect pictures.

1. Nishikido Ryo - Fell in love with him when I watched One Litre of Tears. And his smile is so beautiful. :) He may not be the tall skinny guys I like but he's amazing enough already. I love his acting too. :)

2. Lucas Eugene Scott - He's a fictional character, I like him more than Chad Michael Murray who is real haha this is because Lucas' character is just beyond amazing. So pure and deep.

3. Choi Minho - He's someone I wish to marry. Period. He has the qualities I want in a man. Looks, security, personality, passion.

4. Choi Jonghoon - He's just so so so gorgeous and that for me I feel like he's a dream. And if I actually see him in real life someone should pinch me, really. His face is perfection.

5. Kim Junsu - He has such nice jawlines and really nice fingers. I love guys with nice fingers. He sings well which makes him even more attractive.
And yes majority of them are Asians because I love Asian guys :) ♥

Day 9, 10, 11

2011-06-05T14:25:00.002+08:00

Day 9 How important you think education is
I'm the person who thinks that education is important. It can take you somewhere and you'll survive the world with it. And learning is fun, knowing knew facts is interesting, really.

Day 10 Put your music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play
1. Always where I need to be - The Kooks
2. Amazing Ft Young Jeezy - Kanye West
3. Roland - Interpol
4. Lollipop feat SHINee - F(x)
5. Get Em High - Kanye West
6. Set Fire to the Rain - Adele
7. Length of Love - Interpol
8. Hello - G-Dragon feat Dara
9. Ring Ding Dong - SHINee
10. I am in Love with You - Imogen Heap

Day 11 Your family
Well I have eight people in my family including my parents and myself. Yup big family. I have four older brothers then me then a younger sister. We are pretty much not family kinda people but we all have good relationships with each other. Nobody hate anybody in the family. I'm very close with mum more than dad. And of course since my sister and I are the only girls so we are pretty close. I am also close with my oldest brother although we are 9 years apart. Oh yea my third and fourth brothers are twins. Uhh my kitty cats are included as family too! I had one cat who passed away when I was younger, her name is Girl. She was family but I was so young I don't remember much about her. Then I had two cats Cik Teh and Cik Lat. Cik Teh died few years ago. And Cik Lat is still here and forever my baby. Then we have another three more cats. Cik Yah, Kitty and Kuku. So now I have four cats at home and they are family.

Day 6, 7 & 8

2011-05-22T13:36:00.003+08:00

I have missed quite a lot of days for this 30 days challenge thing. Oh well. I'm gonna continue three days more. :D

6. Your views on mainstream music
Aha my views on mainstream music? This is interesting. Okay I'm not so sure what I'm gonna say. Lets see. Mainstream music are music played on the radio and televisions which some of them are not my cup of tea and some are well done. Some are just over played and it makes the song becomes blehh. Its like the first time you heard it, it was nice and then its just plain annoying now. Haha. But I'm not one to judge much in music but I enjoy various kinds of music genre. Its nice when you are open with any kind of music. It makes the world a better place somehow. Silly but true. Mainstream music are usually music that are followed by the current music genre which sometimes saddens the mainstream music scene. We need variety, we are greedy for variety. I just feel that the radio now are not as fun as it used to be. Last time they play really good music with soul but now its just about partying, drinking, getting naked, etc. I mean those are fun but dude music mostly should be something deep and soulful yo. Yups thats what I think but I do enjoy some party music too sometimes but still prefers the soulful kind of music. The ones that just takes me to a better place than reality.

7. Five pet peeves
I had to google what pet peeves means. Haha. My vocabulary aint that amazing kay. Anyway, I just dislike when people disturb me especially at the wrong timing. When I'm eating, sleeping and in the lazy mood. Secondly, I dislike drivers that tailgate and drive as if in they are in a hurry and cut you then drives slow. Like seriously dude what the hell man. Thirdly, I get annoyed easily I'm not really sure on exactly why but I do. Sometimes I dislike people asking me questions but that depends on what kind of questions too. Then also sometimes I dislike when someone cleans something but they didnt clean it properly. I get really particular on things like that. I'll re-clean it. Haha. Thats all I can think of.

8. What you ate today
Well I had my breakfast. I made sandwich! It has beef bacon, cheese and salad. I toasted the bread though and put butter cause I like it like that. :D And had a banana. I eat fruits after every meal when I eat at home :)

P.S - Sorry if theres some errors, too lazy to reread them. :) Have a good day! x

What worries you, masters you. -John Locke

Day 3, 4 & 5

2011-05-08T20:16:00.003+08:00

Book you love
I've quite a few books that I love but if I had to choose I'll choose To Kill a Mockingbird. I really enjoyed reading it. It was beautifully written. I really connected with the book and used my imagination to visualize the story. The little girl, she's so young and just so pure you just can't help but adore her. And it did make me feel like I was a little girl too just connecting with her throughout the whole book.

Bullet your whole day
Woke up early on a Sunday. Cleaned up the room since I had guest coming. My classmates came over and we had to do video shooting for one of our tutorial classes. It was about too much of something is no good. So I was playing as the lead actor and I had too much of The Beatles going on. It was really funny. Shooting it. It was fun. But man was it hot outside. It was a productive day. Took a shower and nap after. Had dinner and watch a Korean variety show which was super hilarious. Korean variety show for the win man.

Things you want to say to an ex
Maybe to those who I have dated, thanks, thank you for all the experiences. I've become a better person throughout the good and the bad times.

Day 1 and 2

2011-05-02T23:20:00.003+08:00

I decided to do another 30 days challenge.

Day 1 - Five ways to win your heart

1. Love
2. Laughter
3. Good conversations
4. Food
5. Passion

Day 2 - Something you feel strongly about

Finding, waiting, searching for that special person.

Boiling

2011-04-17T02:00:00.002+08:00

I miss my best friend.
I miss holding hands.
I miss having a good conversation.

You know, I always have the courage to do certain things and its good but sometimes it makes you feel empty. Its unpleasant when you try something and nothing in return. If it was once or twice its okay but more than that, it makes you feel tired. Just tired.

I am in search and waiting for chemistry because now it seems to be unknown.

Why do I always end up boiling up my feelings?

Life.

2011-04-17T01:59:00.000+08:00

In search for chemistry.

Series

2011-04-16T21:33:00.001+08:00

Five Shows Meme

Pick your five favorite TV shows (in no particular order) and answer the following questions about them. Don’t cheat!

1. One Tree Hill
2. Weeds
3. How I Met Your Mother
4. Gossip Girl
5. Skins

Who’s your favourite character in 2?
Silas Botwin

Who’s your least favourite character in 1?
Rachel

What’s your favourite episode of 4?
Whenever Chuck Bass makes Blair Waldorf happy.

What’s your favourite season of 5?
Second and Fourth

What’s your favourite ship in 3?
Marshall and Lily!

Who is your anti-ship in 2?
none

How long have you watched 1?
Since 2006

How did you become interested in 3?
TV and friends been talking about it.

Who’s your favourite actor in 4?
Leighton Meester and Ed Westwick

Which show do you prefer? 1, 2, or 5?
1!

Which show have you seen more episodes of: 1 or 3?
1

If you could be anyone from 4, who would you be?
Blair Waldorf!

How would you kill off your favourite character in 1?
I wouldn't

Give a random quote from 1.
"Always and Forever"

Would a 3/4 crossover work?
Never

Pair two characters in 1 that would make an unlikely, but strangely okay couple.
Lucas and Hayley

Has 5 inspired you in any way?
Yup,no drugs for me for sure.

Overall, which show has a better cast? 3 or 5?
3 definitely. The chemistry is there.

Which has better theme music, 2 or 4?
Four.

Mi finally left

2011-04-02T00:21:00.005+08:00

My best friend finally left for Japan. It was her dream and I'm so proud of her! I'm sad that she's not going to be nearby but its cool. Its for her own good. I miss you very much okay. I'll visit you when I get enough money to pay for the air ticket. :D Take care sweetheart, love you always.

Thats what's up

2011-04-02T00:15:00.003+08:00

Dude, I haven't blogged around four months? Too many shit had happened. One of the awesome thing is this!

Worked for Michael Buble's concert for ticketing and after a lot of hard work, we got to meet him! We shake hands and he gave us cheek kisses! And he was AMAZING!

MGMT

2011-04-02T00:11:00.000+08:00

First concert together with the girls!

15 days into one.

2010-11-11T18:05:00.004+08:00

So I’m gonna do all 15 days right now cause I'm yeah bored and don't wanna do my work.

Day 01 - Photo of you along with ten facts1. I am short

2. I love food

3. I like driving and sometimes hate it

4. I'm evil and selfish

5. I like books

6. I like films

7. I'm a sucker for romance

8. I hate stupid questions although there are no stupid questions but only stupid answers

9. I'm stubborn

10. I'm like a mother for my four cats at home

Day 02 - How you got your tumblr name
Because I like it

Day 03 - Ten Places you want to visit
Asian countries! South Korea again please, Japan, India, Thailand, Macau, America!, Europe, Spain please, Rome, Paris. Almost anywhere in the world basically haha.

Day 04 - Favorite memory from childhood
Saturday and Sunday morning cartoons. Sleepovers with friends and siblings!

Day 05 - Five favorite songs
Currently

I can't - 2PM
Mystery B2st
It hurts - 2NE1
Collide - Howie Day
Wonderwall - Oasis

*Actually I don't know whats my favourite songs. Haha but I'm uhh currently enjoying some Kpop music.

Day 06 - Best job you ever had
Helping mum in the kitchen

Day 07 - Worst job you ever had
Sales promoter

Day 08 - Best day of your life
Days in Seoul! When I saw 2PM at JYPE building.

Day 10 - Worst day of your life
When I found out I flunked my Pre-U

Day 11 - Something you’re addicted to
Koreans, Korea. Sleep.

Day 12 - What did you want to be as a child
A designer

Day 13 - Random fact about you
I'm a dreamer

Day 14 - Five people you are happy with right now
Mi, mum, my lil sister, the girls, my cats.

Day 15 - Person you can’t live without
Family and Mi

First time

2010-11-04T11:09:00.001+08:00

My first ever attempt to do a magazine article. And the subject required is a definite LOVE for me. Click photo for clearer view.

Tomodachi

2010-10-30T00:02:00.003+08:00

Tomodachi = Friend(s)

And I'm miss my best friend.

A faithful friend is the medicine of life. -Bible, Ecclesiasticus 6:16

A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same. -Elbert Hubbard

Want

2010-10-28T09:05:00.002+08:00

Someday I'll go to Europe and get myself a copy of this Cherry Blossom painting by Vincent Van Gogh. I must have it.

Don't worry

2010-10-28T08:48:00.003+08:00

The happiest people are sometimes the saddest people. Don't you think so?

So why do we hide it, our sadness? Always keeping it and going through it on our own. I guess maybe we are just like that. Sometimes if others know that we are sad, they will feel sad too and sometimes guilty because sometimes they can't help us. But yes they know they are able to be there for us. People around you are here for a reason. Sometimes we are stronger than we think. Just have a little faith I guess and everything will be alright.

Everything's complicated, even those things that seem flat in their bleakness or sadness.
Nick Hornby

I actually think sadness and darkness can be very beautiful and healing.
Duncan Sheik

tick tock

2010-10-27T17:14:00.001+08:00

In time the memory that you think will last forever will be gone sooner than you know it. Always keep in mind how time controls almost everything too.

2010-10-26T20:52:00.001+08:00

Work work work for now. But I will always manage to sneak in some distractions into it. Aaahh its okayyy.. It will all be worth while soon. Can't wait!

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams." -Eleanor Roosevelt

Discovering China

2010-10-24T18:58:00.002+08:00

I'm discovering People's Republic of China or famously known as China. My topic is gonna be about global religion. I know I'm not the most religious person but its interestinggg.. And all I have been doing is reading and reading. I need to find that right angle to start writing my essay.

My presentation for this is finally coming and its on this coming Wednesdaaaay!

Lets make it interesting yo.

Good luck to me..

2010-10-20T21:59:00.001+08:00

In the attempt to make a really short simple love story for one of my assignment. Hope it goes well. Fingers cross.

Day 29 - 30

2010-10-17T19:32:00.002+08:00

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

Relationships are hard. Friends are awesome. Education is yes hella fucking important. And mum is always the best. Anddd driving sucks, always always always have to drive carefully. There's been just to much accidents these days. The movie 500 days of Summer does make sense.

Day 30- Who are you?

I'm just some girl trying to survive the world. Always afraid of the future and think too much. But my best friend told me, I'm the kinda of person who makes the decision for the moment. I make bad decisions. I can say that I'm nice to the people that I care about.

...

2010-10-15T00:54:00.001+08:00

To be able to go through it, we have to look forward and have faith?

Its the same shit but different things.

Day 25 - 28

2010-10-14T03:34:00.002+08:00

Day 25 - What I would find in your bag

Lip balm, tissues, hair clips, mirror, contact lens casing and solution, purse, phone, hair brush, a book, an umbrella, a fan, keys, etc..

Day 26 - Favorite TV Show

One Tree hill for the win yo. Its the most awesome show ever. The characters in the show are just aaahh I dont know how to say it. Major love for Lucas Scott and Brooke Davis in the show . I like Weeds too. And any Japanese dramas, they just know how to play with your emotions.

Day 27 - What you think about your friends

My friends are awesome, my girlfriends are just super fun la. I have awesome friends, that includes the boys too.

Day 28 - Discuss your first love and first kiss.

First kiss was interesting. And my first kiss was my first love. The "love" lasted long but it wasn't fully loyal on both sides. It was an interesting experience I must say.

Continue day 18 - 24

2010-10-09T03:18:00.004+08:00

Day 18 → Favorite place in the world

My room is my favorite place in the world.

Day 19 → Something you have created

I just recently created my own short film but its not fully done yet. And its my first time. I'm excited and proud of myself that I did it. Haha. Will show the end product when its done. :)

Day 20 → Photo of something in your home

Cik Lat, my baby cat. She's mine.

Kitty, the newbie.

Cik Yah, my little princess.

Note: My cats aren't that friendly. Haha but they are all pretty. And I have a new kitten! He's a stray cat and he's better and cleaner now.

Day 21- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Sya - My bestfriend, Mi calls me Sya. And Zaidi and Myra calls me that too. But not I mostly heard it from Mi. The other two haven't been in touch. So yeah

Syaz - Its when people find it hard to pronounce Syaza. Haha. Justin and the gang calls me Syaz.

Shazam - Ah yesss.. Ariff in highschool calls me this. And now the boys calls me this too sometimes. They created a new name too. See below

Syaza lingham - Yes what a ridiculous name but this is what Adam calls me. Heh

Syapow - Zac gave me this nickname. It was something worse but he shortened it so yeah.

Pendek (short) - Boon Keat calls me pendek and he pronounced it in a funny way. Haha.

Wan Nur - Thats my name though. My late friend Ilyas calls me this, ah I miss you. And Syafiq calls me this too sometimes.

Kakak - My one and only sister calls me Kakak (big sister)

I'm done.

Day 22 → Favorite clothing

I love skirtssss and dresses. I dress up like a girl but I act like a boy sometimes.

Day 23 → A concert you have attended

I can't recall the most recent one but SWITCHFOOT concert was the BEST! Period.

Day 24 → The last thing you ate/drank
Some chocolate digestive biscuits I bought from Marc & Spencer and plain water.

Good night!

Day 13 - 17

2010-10-09T02:31:00.007+08:00

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

I'm not really close to you but we are tight. You tell me things and we can connect in that manner and we have fun and party together sometimes. (I barely party) But anyway, with something that had happened and I wasn't involve but I was there somewhere and I heard about what happened. Then I decided to ask you something simple and I will never judge you although I know what the answer was, but you lied to me. Although it was a yes or a no question still you lied to me with that one word. And now I'm automatically distancing myself from you. I'm sorry that its happening but I can't say its fully my fault. You decided to lie to me. Sad to say I know the truth but I didn't judge that. Lying to me was just hurtful.

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

Hari Raya, 2010. My cats are family too. ♥

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

No iPod but I just shuffle my playlist then.

1. Trembling blue stars- If I handle you with care
2. Rock 'n roll soldiers - Funny little feeling
3. Nada surf - See these bones
4. 22-20's - Shoot your gun
5. Spoon - You got yr.cherry bomb
6. Band of horses - No one's gonna loves you
7. Sterling knight - What you are to me (Nice song)
8. G-dragon - Hello
9. Super Junior T - Rokkugo
10. Beck - Everybody's gotta learn sometimes

80% of them are from One tree hill soundtrack (love the show, my favourite) And the other remain 20% are Kpop. Haha.

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

Konichiwa

Day 17 → Your celebrity crush

This is rather difficult. I think I might have quite a lot of celebrity crush. Haha but oh my god I have mad love for Asians so yeahh..

1. All time favourite, his Japanese - Nishikido Ryo (News /Kanjani 8)
2. Recent crush his Thai and a Korean celebrity - Nichkhun Horvejkul (2PM)
3. Anddd his American Korean - Jay Park (Former 2PM member/ AOM crew)
4. And okay lets make it last, his Korean - Lee Ki Kwang (B2st)
5. Lets list one White person - James Mcavoy / Joseph Gordon Levitt

OKAY I'M DONE. HAHA.

The overdue One month challenge

2010-10-06T23:30:00.006+08:00

Day 06 - where you’d like to be in 10 years

Doing something useful for myself or others. Basically I hope to live a satisfying life, a stable one please. And if I ended up having children, let them be boys. Haha

Day 07 - A Photo That Makes You Happy

My bestfriend. ♥

Day 08- Short term goals for this month

To finish up my assignments in time of course. Busy busy busy! And do well in them too.

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few day and why

Today, I'm proud or more like happy that I finish shooting for my IDM video assignment. Didn't know I could actually do it, with the help of the boyfriend and the sister btw. Thankyouverymuch.

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

I love happy classic songs! The ones that makes me sing along although I barely know the lyrics. Oh yeaahh.. those songs works for me when I'm happy, bored and hyped. Sad songs like those sappy love songs ah. But when I'm mad, heavy metal for me yo.

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

Urbanscapes 2010
Jasmine, Alison, Kamal, Syafiq, Adam, Me and Amira.

Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr/Blogspot and why you made one

I can't recall how but why because blogging makes it all better sometimes. I like to talk nonsense so same goes to writing ;) Oh yea lets just say its kind of a trend too. Heh.

2010-09-29T22:14:00.002+08:00

I am thankful for laughter, except when milk comes out of my nose. -Woody Allen

One Month Challenge - 03, 04 and 05

2010-09-20T22:34:00.004+08:00

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Right now, I'm a glad that I met these girls this year. They definitely makes my university life awesome. :)

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

I might be rather ignorant by saying this but I'm not sure whats the bad habit that I wish I didn't have. I guess I can say I have a habit of thinking too much which makes me feel insecure at times. Yeah that's one of it. Other than that maybe being lazy. I need to be more hardworking yo. I don't wanna have a belly. I need to exerciseeee.. And stop being selfish and start sharing maybe? Haha.

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Dubai was amazing. It brought back a newer better me. Haha
Yunnan, China is definitely interesting. This was at the Stone Forest.

I decided to put two pictures instead of one. Hehe.

One Month Challenge - 02

2010-09-15T14:58:00.003+08:00

Day 02- The meaning behind your Tumblr/Blogspot name

During those Myspace days I got myself some sort of cool nickname, I got it from a song from Evanescence it was called Imaginary. Then my Myspace name was written this way "i m a g i n a r y ?" Haha thenn my best friend calls me Sya so then I decided to combine them together and it became imaginarysya. :)

One Month Challenge - 01

2010-09-14T21:26:00.002+08:00

Hi, I know its been a while but I'm gonna do a one month challenge here instead of Tumblr. Enjoy.

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

01. I laugh at my own jokes.

02. Sometimes I'm satisfied with how I look but sometimes I'm not.

03. I'm very particular sometimes although I am open minded.

04. There are certain things that I'm not that picky, which is food.

05. I'm small for a person who eats a lot.

06. I love to give kisses to my cat.

07. I drive like a dude.

08. I do sometimes wish I was taller.

09. I have mad love for Asians.

10. I wanna live in other Asian countries.

11. I dream too much.

12. I never thought I would be closer to my mum now.

13. I shop cheap. I love clothes but I'm kinda cheapskate.

14. My boyfriend is not exactly my type but I love him the way he is.

15. I am vain at times.

Too lazy to put a picture of me. Sorry.

inside

2010-07-18T15:03:00.002+08:00

I need a long term goal.
I want to learn another Asian language.

I'm working on it. Its in process.

The only thing about us is that we're just lazy.
That is the difference between the ones who have achieved a lot of their goals and the ones who achieved lesser goals. Laziness is the major reason.

the end of world cup

2010-07-12T20:10:00.002+08:00

So everyone has heard that Spain won the 2010 World Cup. I guess they really do deserve since I actually watch them play. Haha I'm not a football person. I was really avoiding to watch world cup but then that one particular match I watched I got attached. I was stuck, I too became like everyone else. If you wondering, it was the match between Germany and England. Germany caught my eyes and my heart. So I was rooting for Germany since then. However I was disappointed with one match though, Germany vs Spain. They didn't play very well, I guess they got scared or something because of Paul the octopus's prediction saying that Spain is going to win. Oh well, they still made it to third place so I was happy. I really enjoyed the match Germany vs Uruguay it was outstanding the way they played although it was just for third place they did their best to be on that place. Good job guys. The finals was rather shitty though but it was still an interesting match to watch. There were so many yellow cards! It was just plain hilarious yet silly. Half of Netherlands players got yellow card. Haha.. Almost at the end of extra time Spain scored it was splendid I have to say.. GOOD JOB TO ALL THE PLAYERS IN THE WORLD CUP. You guys have brought the people together. ;)

I guess I can't wait for the next world cup. Germany for the win.

semester one

2010-06-23T13:41:00.002+08:00

Hi. Finally I'm done with semester one. Woot woot. Been having lots of fun. Last Friday went to Freedom 360. Party party. Yesterday had an awesome girls evening. Today gonna party it up at PD. Friday gonna watch a play. And Saturday going to Urbanscapes with Mi ♥

I'll put it all in details soon laa. Haha busy busy lol

Love

Hi bye

2010-05-22T15:07:00.000+08:00

Hi, I been wanting to blog but I'm busy. I went to China and I now I have lots of things to do. So I'll talk to you soon.

kelip 182

2010-05-04T01:57:00.002+08:00

Just a preview of my next post. Haha. I love Blink 182! And I like Travis Barker :D And this is one of my favourite songs. Enjoy! :D

Anthem Part 2 - Blink 182

orang besi dua

2010-05-04T01:40:00.003+08:00

I went to watch Ironman 2 with my twin brothers and my cousin. Night out with the boys I guess. I promised my pilot brother that we should go watch it so yeah. The movie was AWESOME. I love every part of the movie. It was thrilling, exciting and hilarious too. Definitely good stuff and also interesting. The soundtrack sounds really awesome though. Good choice of music. I like. Gonna download the soundtrack of course. The theme song is from AC/CD so that makes it even more awesome!

But then when I watched it, I still don't get much but I had this thought right, so basically this body suit, this ironman is just to protect America? And not the world. Interesting ey? Well you can interpret it or think deeper in your own way. :D Sorry if I just made you guys think. Haha.

Oh ya back to the movie right. I'm sorry I'm still amazed by the movie, it can't be helped. They had DJ AM in there, Rest in Peace Adam Goldstein. And Scarlett Johansson was just too sexy in it! She didnt wear anything too revealing but what she wore was tight dresses and tight sorta cat suit-ish. It was just too hot man. Haha and her green eyes is just so beautiful and her lips, aahh. Haha. Oh God I'm sorry, I just love her! and also they used my favourite Audi cars! Ahh smoking hot but then I don't see a red Audi R8 in it which kinda sucks cause I wanted to see that! Haha but its aight.

Well I'm not sure what else I want to see here but my next blog post I'm gonna talk about punk rock! I love punk rock and I miss the old school punk rock! So be ready sugar. :D

Good night, xo.

first may

2010-05-01T05:13:00.002+08:00

I think this would be one of the weirdest and most random nights I ever experience although it all happened at home. I had a talked with Mi because I really needed her. Read my old blog posts from my other blog, read old emails, basically went on memory lane for a while. Shed little tears. And dancing made me felt better. Read my book and almost fell asleep but then the eldest knocked on my door.

I had a talk with eldest one. He needed a company, he needed me. So I companied him and we talked. And he asked for my help so I helped him. All because I care and I don't want the same shit to happen again. This is all because I want to protect my eldest. Therefore I need to be strong for him. If I was weak things will go bad. So yes I chose to be strong so I can help him because we are family. Even though the matter wasn’t big but the little things still counts. Little things, little problems, little issues can go big so we have to be aware and let the little things count.

Don’t think too deep because you will go crazy. Therefore set a limit, it helps. Trust me. Because if you don’t you’ll be in deep shit. You will start questioning and wondering and yeah you’re fucked. So don’t cross the limit. Be careful. Our mind is interestingly amazing but don’t let it control you, it’s there for you to control it.

There's just something with this song.

2010-05-01T05:03:00.002+08:00

Where Did You Sleep Last Night (Unplugged) by Nirvana

The way he sang it, his voice, he felt the song and everything about it la. There's something about this song I just can't seem to know what it is but it just gets me you know. Its fucking awesome.

2010-04-30T21:41:00.001+08:00

“Deep in my heart I'm concealing things that I'm longing to say. Scared to confess what I'm feeling - frightened you'll slip away.” -Madonna

books, new cat

2010-04-30T12:01:00.004+08:00

This is I think his name is Afiz. I forgot his name. Because he was adorable and super vain his picture is here. Hehe.

This is our new cat, Kitty. We didn't name her that. Our neighbour did its their cat. They had to move so they give Kitty to us.

Done with this book, finally! I like the humour in the book. Definitely a very nice read.

Current read. Interestingly written actually. Can't wait to finish it.

This would be my next read. Finally I bought it. Been wanting to get my hands on this book since like forever!

Now I want to go to Kinokuniya! I want more books to read!

pilot done. movies I want

2010-04-30T11:32:00.002+08:00

So congrats to my brother, Abang Amir for completing his pilot training. Now he's just waiting around for a job I guess. Hopefully he gets a nice job la. This mean he moves back here, no more staying in Ip0h. And then he brought back his computer and jeng jeng jeng. I saw a movie folder and there's a lot of movies in there that I haven't watch. So I am happy to the extend where I can watch them all but I can't watch them now cause I have other things to do first. Aaahhh.. Sad laa..

So now my house has four computers. And my laptop is unfixable, which is very sad. Praying to get a new laptop but not sure if that's going to happen.

Nway almost everyone on twitter was worried about failing CCS and that makes me scared. LOL. But I doubt you guys would fail la. As long as you do it and I think you'll be safe. I know the assignment is really bloody annoying but it can't be help la.

I feel like sleeping now.

idk

2010-04-27T20:02:00.003+08:00

always love

this is our holiday
Mi got me this, its delicious ♥
after sending you home this is what I saw

I have no idea what to say here, really. I've been busy doing God knows what la. Oh ya my cousin just got married last Saturday. Congrats to you cousin. And erm yeah, my holiday is basically okay. So much work need to be done.

I went to the bookstore today while waiting for my sister. Ahh books, I have so much love for them. I want to read them all. Every time when I go to a bookstore I always want to buy at least one book. But sometimes I can't, you know la money is the issue.

Mum's birthday is tomorrow.

What I'm doing now is for our own good. For the both of us. It gives us time and space to think things through. Because I do care about you too, not just myself. We just need to be more careful. Our hearts are fragile enough already so we need to care for them gently.

sex

2010-04-20T22:51:00.000+08:00

Nishikido Ryo, enough said.

nineteen

2010-04-10T20:36:00.004+08:00

Thank you Lord because I have been living on earth for 19 years! And you gave me a wonderful life. Thank you family and friends for all the wishes, smiles and laughter you gave on my birthday. ♥

Pictures curi from John and Phil's facebook. Arigato! ♥

I miss this

2010-04-07T22:46:00.001+08:00

I miss having exams. I miss making little colorful notes.
I miss the pressure too.

2010-04-07T00:27:00.001+08:00

Did I tell you? I quit smoking. :) And got sick for two weeks. Life's a bitch ey? Haha. But its all good.

And after all that, however long all that may be, you’ll go somewhere new. And you’ll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again.

men and big bikes

2010-04-06T09:33:00.002+08:00

Men and big bikes, hello hello. That actually reminds me on my last last post where I saw this guy walking past me holding a full face helmet and without a doubt he rides a super bike. I mean hello there. :D He's was quite sexy looking too. Haha. Sorry somehow that turns me on. :P

Mind you not those men with small bikes ya, like those rempit. No offense la, you people don't have my attention at all. Lol.

My trip to China and Korea have been postpone till further notice. Blaahhh..

help me

2010-04-04T22:39:00.002+08:00

I need you to help me to get back on the right track.
I'm weak and all I need is your hand holding on to mine.
Make me believe that I can do this. Just stay by my side.

a little preview

2010-04-04T16:31:00.003+08:00

Mari mari, kita tengok gambar saya semasa berada di Dubai. :D
Actually I'm only showing you, our faces in Dubai. Its just too exciting. Hehe.

Meet Ali

Me, Imran snapped this picture btw.

This is Imran.

2010-04-01T22:16:00.001+08:00

I'm scared.

10

2010-03-31T20:10:00.002+08:00

Can I have white lilies for my birthday?
Anyone?
:(

Please...

Its 10 days away till my hari lahir.
What do I want for my birthday?
Dont know.

Mi and Alissa are not going to be with me on my birthday :(

Melayu balik

2010-03-31T19:38:00.002+08:00

So, my kawan Ilya all the way from London, oopps my bad. Kawan yang duduk di London, commented my blog tanya kata nak cakap Melayu. Haha ini dia your Melayu. Seriously I can't! Shit Melayu balik la perempuan. *talking to myself* Eh tersilap, cakap dengan diri sendiri.

Kegilaan kerana perlu menyiapkan assignment telah berhenti untuk seketika. Tetapi ada, lagi banyak akan datang. Sei sei sei.

Ahh this is so kelakar, but yeah.

I don't really know what to say here, really.

Ciao. xo

Monday

2010-03-29T22:19:00.001+08:00

Not going to be my week and its only Monday

Phil and I are planning on a short film :)

My birthday is coming soon? Hmm.. Don't feel like turning a year older. Can I skip my birthday?

POSITIVE THINKING!

shit.

lost in translation

2010-03-27T22:51:00.001+08:00

Saya perlu berhati-hati kerana hati ini mungkin akan jatuh lebih dalam. Apatah lagi hati ini adalah mudah pecah, tetapi awak adalah orang yang baik hati dan manis.

Mahu faham apa yang telah dikatakan? Silalah translate kepada bahasa English.

:D

Malay

2010-03-27T01:24:00.001+08:00

Mari mari kita berbahasa Melayu. Sudah lama tidak berbahasa Melayu bersama rakan-rakan.

Hows that for starters?

comprende?

2010-03-24T20:54:00.001+08:00

All I ask is for you not to call me babe.

2010-03-23T20:42:00.001+08:00

I need a picture for that empty frame hanging on the wall in my room.

Should I open the door bigger or just leave the space the way it is for now?
I do want you but I feel insecure.

weekend

2010-03-21T21:45:00.002+08:00

How was your weekend? Hmm.. Overall I have to say I had quite an interesting weekend. Went out everyday, Friday till Sunday. And haven't done shit for my assignments. But anyway, I basically learned new roads and I actually can take instructions quite well. I mean twice I had to follow someone's direction through the phone. I'm pretty good at it. Haha. I drove a lot too, quite tiring tho. Today for the first time I drove, had a flat tyre at Duke highway. Almost had to change it all by myself, I did like a quarter part of the work then came a guy to save us. It was raining and yes I was in the rain and I just had my shower that time. Lol, but anyway thanks man. There are actually nice people in this country. May God bless you. Then also it was because my mum dragged me to her friend's place. Then I had to listen to some people promoting their products. There were a lot of products. I just sat there, stoning. Bored as hell. Oh and sadly I didnt go for Super Junior concert last night but I sent my sister, Mi and Iman for the concert tho. And picked them up too. Had someone to company me, which was really nice. Oh and on Friday, had to pick up my drunk brother. But he wasnt that drunk when I picked him up tho. Cehh.. I didnt really know how to explain my weekend. It was weirdly interesting although it was just simple things that happened. And I got to see Ping and Az tho! It was nice la, havent seen Az in ages!

I finally watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button and it was a beautiful movie. Had tears in my eyes. And Brad Pitt is one hell of a good looking man.

Getting to know you have been interesting. And you do make me smile, from ear to ear. :)

Night, flowers.
xo

Penelope

2010-03-17T19:37:00.002+08:00

I just love this movie. ♥

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
you make me happy when skies are grey
you'll never know dear how much I love you
please don't take my sunshine away

smitten yet terrified

2010-03-15T23:41:00.003+08:00

Yes I've been saying that to both my social networking sites. This is because I'm afraid on taking this step. Although I actually already did take that particular step. Uncertainty just love to taunt me. Its scary, if you're weak. Really because I am. Since I'm afraid, that makes me a chicken. Since it has been a while about feeling this way, it makes me scared. Opening a door that you have been locked closed in so long is something huge, even though you only open a little. This feeling shouldn't be a stranger, its more of a long lost friend. However, it feels more like a stranger than a friend. With time have been passing like it always do every second, it has become hard for me to believe something can work out well. The way you hope it would be. It almost feels weird that things would work out fine. It is even more terrifying if most things work out fine.
Doubts and uncertainty are cibai.

I'm suppose to be smiling.

oh sunny day

2010-03-14T21:53:00.004+08:00

So as you know, of course you do that the world is huge. Different parts of the world have different weather. And in Asians countries most of them are hot. Summer all year baby. But anyway last time the weather was okay. It was acceptable. There's rain, sunny days, cloudy days, etc. However now, its crazy hot. Especially where I'm at, Malaysia. Even us Malaysian can't even stand our own weather, how sad right? When I was in Dubai it was Winter but no snow la. Winter there was good, there's super cold wind with clear blue sky on a sunny day. But then when I got back here, I sweat. When I was there and I didn't sweat at all. Crazy isn't it? The weather now is unpredictable it can be hot as hell in morning and after that it will rain like crazy during the evening. When we had our Malaysian Open just recently, some of the golfers actually quit because they couldn't take the heat. So who do you blame? Haha. We can't blame God, of course we can. He is the almighty God. This is our own fault, because we take advantage of all the things that we have. Some we waste it and never think about the effects in the future. To say that we humans are stupid is a lie because like hello there's like gazillions invention and things that were created by humans throughout the decades by using their freaking brain! Human brains are something huh. If the animal can at least think a little, I think they would definitely want to dig out the human brains and stuff it in their head. Lol, lame I know. Anyway, I'm not really sure what would be a really good solution to this issue but I do see some people trying to make it better. Trying to be "greener". Its sort of late but it isn't too late! Please watch the documentary called "The inconvenient truth" that person in it he gives out interesting facts about the environment and the world. :) I sort of forgotten what was my point for this post but the reason I did this particular topic is because I had to freaking shower three times today because it was hot! Another thing I want to point out is that I'm glad that the people are more aware about the environment. Say no to plastic bags! If I can do that, I'm sure you can too. :D

What an odd post isn't it? Haha.

Later flowers.

Lady Gaga

2010-03-14T00:37:00.004+08:00

I like Lady Gaga when she first debuted her song 'Let's Dance'. Then after that I didn't fancy her as much cause I felt like she's sort of ridiculous. Haha but I think I gotta take back my words. Firstly she ain't a slutty poser like Kesha. And her songs are catchy, contemporary and wicked. Then she is definitely different than others. She has her own unique style. I mean like who the hell wears a freaking huge ass shrimp as a head piece? The answer would be, Lady Gaga. Haha. So anyway, I was watching E! News right, then the were showing the preview for Lady Gaga's new music video featuring Beyonce called Telephone. When I saw that little sneak preview I just had to check it out. So I did, and it was 9 minutes long. It was really interesting. Her mind is full of creativity. How I wish I can think more creatively and sorta weird-ish too. So anyway back to the video, fucking hell she doesn't mind stripping naked, okay fine she was almost naked. But somehow it didn't really make her look slutty at all cause I felt like that's how she is. Of course you should know her videos are all only suitable for adults, definitely can't show kids her videos, its too much, lol. I must say her body is so nice and it ain't a size freaking zero! Overall I would say Lady Gaga will be a legend. Seeing her works its amazing although some are crazy but still she is good in what she's doing. So Ms Gaga keep on doing on what you're doing. :)

Telephone - Lady Gaga featuring Beyonce.

Smile though your heart is aching.

2010-03-13T22:26:00.007+08:00

So I haven’t blogged in ages. Yes yes, I have said that in my previous post. Nway whoever is reading this, Hi Hello, how are you? LOL. So university has started just recently and guess what I am shit scared. Since I was scared I actually didn't skip anything for the orientation except for the city survival skills I don't really need that since I've been living in the city for my entire life. So yeah. I'm happy to say that my fatty friend, Syafiq decided to join Taylors. Finally balls, last time ajak masuk Taylors with me nak masuk KDU. Haha No offence KDU. So basically like every freaking year I made new friends. Interesting ones too, no kidding. I made quite a number of new friends but I keep on forgetting their names. I do remember some like for example, Daniel, Austin, Jasmine, Sher, Michelle, Charles, Leo, Ramadhan, Shiori, Sean, Joan, another Michelle, Ife, Ali, Zack, Lau, Kevin, Delilah, Joanne, Abner, Justin, Jeng kit? And more I think, I can't recall all. Haha.

And now I'm stuck I have no idea what to say. I need to get back on my writing, I mean I'm a communication student for God sake. This ain't happening. Oh btw OMG I can't believe this. I freaking didn't blog about Dubai at all. I mean come on Sya, Dubai was like amazing. Whenever my friends asked me that was my answer. Dubai was amazing. Hehe. It was a beautiful concrete jungle, even the desert was exquisite. Well I'll continue talking about Dubai when I have the time and the feel to just blabber about it. :) But here's a picture of sunrise in Dubai.

And also I didn't talk about my new beautiful camcorder. But here it is, hehe.

I seriously don't know what else to say.

I know I should move on and get over that particular person who mostly makes me sad and not happy most of the time. I think its time, don't you think so too?

I'm smitten over someone apparently. I hope it isn’t just another game. I don't think the heart can take it, if it’s just another game.

The last two part, contradicts ey? Haha. Life is interesting isn't it?

As always, later flowers,
sweet dreams, xo.

so its been 2 freaking months ey?

2010-03-10T22:18:00.000+08:00

So its been 2 freaking months ey? since I last blogged. COOL! I am LAZY, VERY!

Hello January

2010-01-10T22:43:00.003+08:00

Hi, its been a weird start of the year. During the countdown I had liquor pouring on my hair, yupp what tragedy right? So then I thought its going to be a liquor year for me, whatever thats suppose to mean. How did you guys celebrate your new years? Mine was awesome, everything is like last minute. But it was worth it! Bloody Beetroots was awesome and I discovered a hottie. :D Anyway, the year just started and I got sick. I have sore throat since last Sunday night till now, bloody hell. Its so not cool. Oh and I decided to quit smoking, so I sort of think that whatever hell that I been going through is the side effects of quitting smoking. Its hell I tell you but its okayy. Its my own good. And I knew all about it cause I read it online. Haha. Nway I seriously dont know what else to say, I'm totally blank. All I know is that I need to clean my room. And I want to start writing and reading again! I just bought two new books recently. I wanna go on a trip so trying to plan out some trips, to Singapore and somewhere out of KL. I just need to get out of here even just for a day! Oh and I'll be done with work in 5 bloody days! But 4 days of full dayyy, oh well I deserved it for ponteing-ing kerja so many days! I have so many things need to be done, yes yes. I need to go register for Uni and get ready for Uni! Wohhoo, I cant wait to go back to college! Life without college is dull quoted from Sim :D
Take care flowers
xx

before 2009 ends

2009-12-30T20:38:00.002+08:00

Hi, its been a while. I havent blogged since 17th November. Wahliauu.. Anyhoo, I been busy working. Yup yup its true I'm working. :D Nways I dont know what to say cause basically all I do is go to work, eat, sleep, watch Japanese dramas and Futurama and thats about it. I miss college. And I'm starting UNIVERSITY soon, February actually but nyehh..

2009 has been a splendid year, although like every year there will always be shitty moments but dont forget good memories are the ones that make year worth while. Just remember the good memories, whats done is done. My 2009 started out wonderful then comes some shitty moments then came again the wonderful moments so yeah. Met great people, had so much laughter, new experiences and etc.

This year I finally accomplished my mission with bright colors, altho it aint flying colors but still I'm satisfied, I'll do better next time. I can say that I have no regrets.

So 2010 is coming, I'm going to accomplish some new challenging mission and ready to take all the opportunities with a smile and an open heart. I'm ready to boggie for 2010 with everything that I have.

To those I met this year, I'm glad I met you guys :)
To those great people that passed away this year may you guys rest in peace.
Your souls will always be with us.

Have a Happy New Year everyone!
Have a blast, dont forget to smile, dont forget to laugh.

Take care always flowers, xo.
I'll be back soon.

work

2009-11-17T23:45:00.002+08:00

I havent been blogging although I had a week of just doing nothing at home but nway I got myself a job, Althea and I did. At Pavilion. I'm working at Parkson Pavilion at the handbag section, please drop by. Work is boring and time pass by damn slow balls. So if you're wondering why I havent blogged in ages is because I'm busy working. Gahh. Paris Hilton you handbags and purses aren't that pretty and its bloody expensive. Sigh.

Well to those who are having holidays, have a good holiday.

Cheerio, xo.
Take care.

sweet memories

2009-11-06T19:59:00.002+08:00

Today was our last day of Foundation. It was indeed a bittersweet day.

I was the last one to leave the freaking exam hall for Economics exam. I feel like a total nerd but whatever la. Then the next paper wasn't that bad too. Then it was time to say our goodbyes. We took pictures. Then I hugged everyone that was there. Monkeys and I lepak at the mamak for abit, laugh laugh laugh. Then went to see Ms Mary. Ah isn't she the sweetest lady ever! We chat for abit and we hugged. Yes we did, she had her arms open offering us a hug. When we hugged I felt like tears are coming out from my eyes, i mean where else tears would come from anyway. So yeaahh. I somehow feel quite sad in a way. I'm going to miss each one of my classmates deeply including the lecturers that thought us. This is definitely a sweet sweet memory. :) I dont know why but I couldnt cry. I wanted to but tears are not coming out. So all I could do was to just be at that very moment and cherished it deeply.

This is the second time I had to say goodbye to college. Hopefully, which I'm pretty much sure that I'll pass and go to degree next year. Hoping for good grades tho.

Boy, why do I even care too much. But whatever it is I am here, always. I'm still going to hang around. My heart is not ready to let you go yet. And I miss you.

Have a good weekend everyone.
xo.

2009-11-05T20:44:00.000+08:00

I just want you to stay.
Please.

exam

2009-11-03T22:46:00.002+08:00

I am freaking out a little cause tmrw is the day where I know foundation is ending! Wahliauu, scared sial. Tapi takpe, I'll do my very best yo! Good luck to everyone who is having exams! :) Its only three days, hang in there mates. We'll go through it togetherrrr..

adios, nights.
xo

Happy Birthday Ryo

2009-11-03T00:22:00.003+08:00

I'm taking a break from studying to wish Ryo all over my social networking sites. Haha I know, its silly but I don't care. Anyway Happy Birthday Nishikido Ryo!! You are definitely my ultimate dream guy sial. Super super super good looking and dreamy! Some think their dream guys are always perfect but you do have an imperfection, you're not that tall. Haha but still I love you anyways! I'm so lame sial. But your smile never miss to melt my heart (by looking at his pictures ofcourse) You're 25 years old now. Marry me!!!!!! Hahahahha. :D

I know I posted this picture before and this is my favourite picture of him! *MELTS*

And this one too! Aaaaaahhh dreeeaaaammyyyyyy...

Okay I better stop now. But but but, not buts Syaza. Stop it! Okaaayy fine Syaza. Its study time, Nyeehh.

Good night flowers, xo

its saturday

2009-10-31T11:32:00.002+08:00

I manage to wake up before 12pm, wohhoo! I been wanting to wake up way earlier but laaazy lah. And thankfully finally! i worked out for atleast 15 minutes. Haha its a good start la you know. Anyhoo, today is a study dayy. Gonna stuff knowledge in my braaaaain.

After finals is over, I can't wait to get my new room done. All white, ah so gorgeous! Hehe.

So remember I talked about stranger, haha I'm sorry I have to call you that my dear. But anyway since I got used to a week of receiving your phone calls everyday, its going to be two weeks nw. Plus its more than one phone call a day, mostly. I got addicted to it. Now without miss I just wait for my phone to ring. And yes remember I told you, you have a special ringtone. Its one of my favourite song by Big Bang hehe. Its called We belong together. Lol. And nowww, I'm confused because I think I like you. Shit. What say you? I dont know. Remember it was suppose to just be a game? Hmm..

I'm glad now that slowly I have been thinking more about positive things. This is good. I want to go party SIM ALTHEA JASMINE! I want to go Malaccaaaaa! Grrr! Like what Jasmine said, Sim can go see the dog. HAHA :P Althea with that creepy Bala dude LOLOL. Ah I love you guys sia.

Why is my post suddenly so emo one? Ee yerr. But actually I feel like I need a good cry. Should have watched Time Traveller's Wife instead of that stupid Jennifer's Body movie. Its a thriller movie, but I laugh as if it was comedy. Ah sorry ah. Certain stuff in it I just find it hilarious. Hehe

Aite have a good weekend everyone.
Later, flowers. xo

notes

2009-10-30T21:25:00.002+08:00

I have successfully did part of my notes. Haha. Still more to go. Just finished with Economics tho. After this it will be Media Appreciation. Then the others. I have a pimple under my lips, grr! So not cool kayy. Anyhoo, a few more days till finals then party everyday papaparty everyday. Hahaha, yea la tuuu.

Btw today was my last day of class for my Foundation. Hell I'm gonna miss you people, like what Sim said we were like a family despite all the offended or whatever lahh. Haha. I kinda agree with her. Will miss you guys very much since you know, I practically see you guys every bloody day since January! Hope to see most of you guys in degree! Good luck with finals sweets.

Okay back to studying. Hehe
Later flowers, xo

playlist

2009-10-28T23:29:00.003+08:00

I'm gonna be a little bitchy but I welcome this 'somebody' person in my blog very much. And balls, I'm super curious to know who you are. So I would appreciate it if you tell me. Haha. Seriously the curiousity is killing me in a way ah.

I miss listening to Ms Yamagata. Therefore she and Mr.Buble will be in my playlist from now on. My attempt to study was a half success, which is actually pretty good. Yeay me! I been tuning in to Lite.fm, as always they never failed to provide me good music at night time.

So you came back again, not sure how long you're going to stay. But you know I'll never fail to get excited everytime you show your presence. :) And hope you'll listen to the song I dedicated to you.

This stranger person, apparently I get excited telling Mi about him. And Mi I miss you! And screw that bloody asshole with that stupid Gen2! Nway, stranger and i are testing each other to see how long will it take for us to make the first move to call or text one another. I have a feeling I might lose. Haha Oh well. I'm not much of an ego person, so yea.

Anyway, why am I blogging la? I should be studying. But going to bed instead.
Night flowers, xo.

immune

2009-10-25T21:54:00.002+08:00

So I basically havent blogged in a while. And SO MANY things happen. Good, bad, medium. Oh well life is life. Anyway I been making lists. I sort some things out for future plans. Finals are coming, in a week. Excited nervous scared sad, you name it. Foundation is coming to an end, can you believe it? Oh dear Lord. Praying for flying colors tho. So I already plan to get a job right after war is over. Need cash for future usage. Hehe basically now, most of the actions are made for the future. :) Btw I'm plannin to go for Green Day in January. I mean its Green Day sial!

I'm still somewhat in love with you but you as always kept disappearing. You make me sad and sometimes you still manage to get me excited everytime when I can feel your presence.
Then a stranger came a long and its somehow making my life interesting. But I'm still uncertain with this situation.

I felt like its just going to be a game. Therefore I have to play my cards right so that I wont fall wrongly. But somehow I felt like you do care a little since you bother to call and text me most of the time and also you are curious over certain things as well. Haha

Aite, thats it. Going to be missing for a while. Gotta study study study.
Take care flowers. xo

2009-10-25T14:29:00.002+08:00

If your plan is to actually just play games with me, I'm going to make you fall deep.

NUFAN

2009-10-18T22:47:00.003+08:00

FUCK SIAL! No Use For a Name was bloody amazing just now! I swear to God, they are like long live punk rock doh! I'm happy that I went there with them boys. Wohhoo! Awesome shit!

2009-10-17T00:25:00.002+08:00

Apparently theres virus in my laptop. Cibai. So need to reformat it. Very ma fan sial.
Worked for almost 12 hours today with Althea and Sim.
Leg's being a bitch.
Someone's coming to town, excited, nervous and shy sial.

Kay ah ciao.
Happy Deepavali btw!
Night, xo

note to God

2009-10-14T20:57:00.002+08:00

Might regret it but fuck it la life goes on. God, You are kind and forgiveful. As long as I don't disturb or bother other people's life its okay. I'll repent and You know it already. You created me. You know everything, I respect You and I worship You but I might not be the best ones that You have but I tried. Temptation is evil and You created it anyway. You got it all planned out. You know what's gonna happen and all. You just let it all happen. Eventhough You gave us options but each options You know the consequences. Well, You are the Almighty God.

wah liau

2009-10-12T22:24:00.002+08:00

So yesterday I just bought a book, The Catcher in the Rye. Holyshit balls, boy the book is the shit! The writings is just amusing. I already read half of it and I couldnt stop. Haha. But now I have to la. Nways, it was just an interesting l tale about a young man to read.

I have a problem now, NUFAN's gig I have no company. Mi cant make it. Lazy to elaborate why. Haha, If you're reading this I know you feel bad. :P Dont be ah, its totally cool. Oh and Gene's going but takkan suddenly want to tag along with him and his friends? Malu la sial. Hahaha. Tah la see how la nanti. Geram betul LOLOL.

Last night I finished my Islamic Studies written assignment and boy dont I feel like the world's biggest hypocrite. But fuck it its for the grades. Same goes to my research paper. These assignments are making me going against my views for the sake of getting the grades. Its okay la, to lazy to argue like a mad cow trying to talk about my views. Too much work ah.

I'm just counting down the days for the moment. Apparently for a lot of things. Haha. Been saving money too. For future use. :)

Oh and I downloaded a few movies, Yeah baby! Cant wait for finals to be over then I can laze around, watch movies, read my books, play the ps2 and try playing the ps3 also. Hahaha.

Okay ah, have to continue my research work.
Later, xo

3 weeks

2009-10-12T01:38:00.002+08:00

Counting down the days till finals. Its coming, soon! But still got assignments need to finish up sia. Well, I'm left with Research paper, Movie review, TV pilot review, Research presentation and Social Documentary. :) This week will be another hell week.

Someone's coming this weekend. Super excited yet scared. How do I greet you love?
Can't wait!

Goodnight lovers
xo

you

2009-10-09T01:30:00.003+08:00

No puedo esperar para verle

NUFAN!

2009-10-07T06:11:00.003+08:00

I'm awakeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Counting down the days for No Use For A Name! Wohhhoooooo! MI YOU HAVE TO COME WITH MEEEE!!!

Someone's gonna come here sooooooooonnn! Cant Wait! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Chiow, xo

mondayyy

2009-10-05T19:53:00.004+08:00

I've been delaying my work which definitely suck balls. Tmrw for our Media Appreciation class, we're going to talk about Nat King Cole. Woohhhoo. I just had my first meal for the day and im super full which is making me sleeeeeeeepy. This week and next week is going to be another hell week.

The room is shit messy. Gonna shift to the new room soon, when I'm free and rajin. I'm counting down the days till finals. Then we all can go party and drink another the stars again. And i'll be having 2 months break till bloody degree next year.

Eh Zoukout 2009 is on 12 December. I want to go but not sure. grr

xo

I need your help everyone, please!

2009-10-04T21:11:00.001+08:00

PLEASE DO THIS SURVEY FOR MEEEEEEEEEEE!
Its for my research paper. Pretty pleaseeee..
http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=xTZKem9qm4DGDavedL_2fRyA_3d_3d

wtf life

2009-10-04T00:44:00.001+08:00

I was happy, really. My life was not that bad, it was okay. But now, I dont feel that same anymore. It feels like shit. Life is bitch and will always be. So fuck it, screw it but just live it to the fullest no matter how shitty it gets. So yea.

xo

list list

2009-10-02T01:44:00.002+08:00

I rarely make wishlists but somehow now I have a wishlist. But right now its all in my head. (hope I dont forget the list) Will list it out when I have the time.

Oh btw No Use For A Name a.k.a NUFAN are coming to town. Forgot to brag about it before. And 90% chance I'm going. Hehe. Super Excited.

Apparently I have a lot of lists, not just a wishlist but also movie list andddd event list! Wohhoo! All the listing will be done when the fire in hell has reduce ya.

Boy you are one complicated guy but still I'm hanging on to you :)

Gotta go nw.
Chiow Flowers, xo

random updates

2009-09-30T01:21:00.003+08:00

I used to hope a lot but then I slowly realized hope is just a lie that keeps you going. So I now I often just have faith in something. And now I’m beginning to feel nothing. NADA!

Deftones is just Awesome and is always my favourite music to listen to when I’m in stress. haha.

Our trip to Malacca is delayed until the semester ends! Its okay Sya, it’s in a month time or so. haha we are so going right after the bloody finals. Urgh finals! Sei lo. then Karabau baby!

I have my Saturday planned out already, looks really fun. Super excited about it. hehe

I have a lot of assignments due on 2nd Oct till 9th Oct. ITS HELL! And I’m still procrastinating. Its baadddd, really. All I been doing is sleep sleep and eat. I’m no longer a pig but slowly becoming a fat pig. Ee yerr, super unattractive sia, lol.

I became a twitter addict, in 2 or 3 months I have 500 tweets already! aha! It became more addictive when I downloaded Twhirl for my laptop, super easy to update my twitter and reply my tweets. Kudos to Seesmic! and also Tweetdeck.

Anyway, I hope you don’t fade away, although it seems like you are, slowly. Well I just need to have more faith i guess. If not its okay, Life is a sexually transmitted disease. It can’t be help that it can be bitch.

chiow flowers, xo

yo

2009-09-25T18:41:00.002+08:00

i need a night to remember or not to remember. a night full of madness and randomness. just plain awesome too yes. but before all this nonesense, have to finish all the work first! chiow!

forget about your girlfriend and meet me at the hotel room ;)
the song is catchy ah, its by Pitbull - Hotel Room Service.

hari raya

2009-09-22T15:15:00.004+08:00

i know i been missing for a while. and Hari Raya just passed and it was on 20092009! haha. anyway still sempat for me to wish everyone SELAMAT HARI RAYA! hope everyone had a blast and hope it will continue on till i dont know when. haha. i had a nice raya but a lil different than last year's but still it was great. :) talk more later. got lots of assignments need to be done and its due next week! aaaahh! planning to go Malacca next weeked. fingers crossed. i need it, WE need it. Althea and Sim and I. here are some Raya pictures ♥

ear

2009-09-16T21:00:00.003+08:00

finally. im happy and satisfied.

the pain is still there but its okay, it will be gone soon.

one year

2009-09-10T23:40:00.002+08:00

it has been a year since the death of my beloved cat, Cik Teh. i miss you so much =( why did you have to go so soon. RIP

ps. next week is midterm exam week! die laaa. Good luck everyone.

3 in one.

2009-09-09T20:19:00.002+08:00

my right ear bebeh.

at finnegans. a place full of laughter.

had so much fun yesterday. so random annd stupid. too much of laughter and random lame jokes. hehe. and i did my piercings all three in one go. hell yeah. cant wait for it to heal. so i can change the earings. wohhoo.

ps. Raya coming soon! come faster. hehe